Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda - Vol-9
A DUSKY PHILOSOPHER FROM INDIA
(New Discoveries, Vol. 5, pp. 389-94.)
(To preserve the historical authenticity of the newspaper reports
in this section, their original spelling has been largely
retained; however, their punctuation has been made consistent with
the style of the Complete Works.- Publisher.)
[An interview by Blanche Partington, San Francisco Chronicle,
March 18, 1900]
. . . . . .. . . Bowing very low in Eastern fashion on his
entrance to the room, then holding out his hand in good American
style, the dusky philosopher from the banks of the Ganges gave
friendly greeting to the representative of that thoroughly
Occidental institution, the daily press.
. . . I asked for a picture to illustrate this article, and when
someone handed me a certain "cut" which has been extensively used
in lecture advertisements here, he uttered a mild protest against
its use.
"But that does not look like you", said I.
"No, it is as if I wished to kill someone", he said smiling, "like
- like -"
"Othello", I inserted rashly. But the little audience of friends
only smiled as the Swami made laughing recognition of the absurd
resemblance of the picture to the jealous Moor. But I do not use
that picture.
"Is it true, Swami", I asked, "that when you went home after
lecturing in the Congress of Religions after the World's Fair,
princes knelt at your feet, a half dozen of the ruling sovereigns
of India dragged your carriage through the streets, as the papers
told us? We do not treat our priests so".
"That is not good to talk of", said the Swami. "But it is true
that religion rules there, not dollars."
"What about caste?"
"What of your Four Hundred?" he replied, smiling. "Caste in India
is an institution hardly explicable or intelligible to the
Occidental mind. It is acknowledged to be an imperfect
institution, but we do not recognize a superior social result from
your attempts at class distinction. India is the only country
which has so far succeeded in imposing a permanent caste upon her
people, and we doubt if an exchange for Western superstitions and
evils would be for her advantage."
"But under such regime - where a man may not eat this nor drink
that, nor marry the other - the freedom you teach would be
impossible", I ventured.
"It is impossible", assented the Swami; "but until India has
outgrown the necessity for caste laws, caste laws will remain".
"Is it true that you may not eat food cooked by a foreigner -
unbeliever?" I asked.
"In India the cook - who is not called a servant - must be of the
same or higher caste than those for whom the food is cooked, as it
is considered that whatever a man touches is impressed by his
personality, and food, with which a man builds up the body through
which he expresses himself, is regarded as being liable to such
impression. As to the foods we eat, it is assumed that certain
kinds of food nourish certain properties worthy of cultivation,
and that others retard our spiritual growth. For instance, we do
not kill to eat. Such food would be held to nourish the animal
body, at the expense of the spiritual body, in which the soul is
said to be clothed on its departure from this physical envelope,
besides laying the sin of blood-guiltiness upon the butcher."
"Ugh!" I exclaimed involuntarily, an awful vision of reproachful
little lambs, little chicken ghosts, hovering cow spirits - I was
always afraid of cows anyway - rising up before me.
"You see", explained the Brahmin [Kshatriya], "the universe is all
one, from the lowest insect to the highest Yogi. It is all one, we
are all one, you and I are one -". Here the Occidental audience
smiled, the unconscious monk chanting the oneness of things in
Sanskrit and the consequent sin of taking any life.
. . . He was pacing up and down the room most of the time during
our talk, occasionally standing over the register - it was a chill
morning for this child of the sun - and doing with grace and
freedom whatever occurred to him, even, at length, smoking a
little.
"You, yourself, have not yet attained supreme control over all
desires", I ventured. The Swami's frankness is infectious.
"No, madam", and he smiled the broad and brilliant smile of a
child; "Do I look it?" But the Swami, from the land of hasheesh
and dreams, doubtless did not connect my query with its smoky
origin.
"Is it usual among the Hindoo priesthood to marry?" I ventured
again.
"It is a matter of individual choice", replied this member of the
Hindoo priesthood. "One does not marry that he may not be in
slavery to a woman and children, or permit the slavery of a woman
to him."
"But what is to become of the population?" urged the
anti-Malthusian.
"Are you so glad to have been born?" retorted the Eastern thinker,
his large eyes flashing scorn. "Can you conceive of nothing higher
than this warring, hungry, ignorant world? Do not fear that the
you may be lost, though the sordid, miserable consciousness of the
now may go. What worth having [would be] gone?
"The child comes crying into the world. Well may he cry! Why
should we weep to leave it? Have you thought" - here the sunny
smile came back - "of the different modes of East and West of
expressing the passing away? We say of the dead man, 'He gave up
his body'; you put it, 'he gave up the ghost'. How can that be? Is
it the dead body that permits the ghost to depart? What curious
inversion of thought!"
"But, on the whole, Swami, you think it better to be comfortably
dead than a living lion?" persisted the defender of populations.
"Swâhâ, Swaha, so be it!" shouted the monk.
"But how is it that under such philosophy men consent to live at
all?"
"Because a man's own life is sacred as any other life, and one may
not leave chapters unlearned", returned the philosopher. "Add
power and diminish time, and the school days are shorter; as the
learned professor can make the marble in twelve years which nature
took centuries to form. It is all a question of time."
"India, which has had this teaching so long, has not yet learned
her lesson?"
"No, though she is perhaps nearer than any other country, in that
she has learned to love mercy."
"What of England in India?" I asked.
"But for English rule I could not be here now", said the monk,
"though your lowest free-born American Negro holds higher position
in India politically than is mine. Brahmin and coolie, we are all
'natives'. But it is all right, in spite of the misunderstanding
and oppression. England is the Tharma [Karma?] of India, attracted
inevitably by some inherent weakness, past mistakes, but from her
blood and fibre will come the new national hope for my countrymen.
I am a loyal subject of the Empress of India!" and here the Swami
salaamed before an imaginary potentate, bowing very low, perhaps
too low for reverence.
"But such an apostle of freedom - ", I murmured.
"She is the widow for many years, and such we hold in high worth
in India", said the philosopher seriously. "As to freedom, yes, I
believe the goal of all development is freedom, law and order.
There is more law and order in the grave than anywhere else - try
it."
"I must go", I said. "I have to catch a train".
"That is like all Americans", smiled the Swami, and I had a
glimpse of all eternity in his utter restfulness. "You must catch
this car or that train always. Is there not another, later?"
But I did not attempt to explain the Occidental conception of the
value of time to this child of the Orient, realizing its utter
hopelessness and my own renegade sympathy. It must be delightful
beyond measure to live in the land of "time enough". In the Orient
there seems time to breathe, time to think, time to live; as the
Swami says, what have we in exchange? We live in time; they in
eternity.
"WE ARE HYPNOTIZED INTO WEAKNESS BY OUR SURROUNDINGS"
(New Discoveries, Vol. 5, pp. 396-98.)
[An interview by the San Francisco Examiner, March 18, 1900]
Hindoo Philosopher Who Strikes at the Root of Some
Occidental Evils and Tells How We Must Worship God
Simply and Not with Many Vain Prayers.
. . . . . .
One American friend he may be assured of - the Swami is a charming
person to interview.
Pacing about the little room where he is staying, he kept the
small audience of interviewer and friend entertained for a couple
of hours.
"Tell you about the English in India? But I do not wish to talk of
politics. But from the higher standpoint, it is true that but for
the English rule I could not be here. We natives know that it is
through the intermixture of English blood and ideas that the
salvation of India will come. Fifty years ago, all the literature
and religion of the race were locked up in the Sanskrit language;
today the drama and the novel are written in the vernacular, and
the literature of religion is being translated. That is the work
of the English, and it is unnecessary, in America, to descant upon
the value of the education of the masses."
"What do you think of the Boers War?" was asked.
"Oh! Have you seen the morning paper? But I do not wish to discuss
politics. English and Boers are both in the wrong. It is terrible
- terrible - the bloodshed! English will conquer, but at what
fearful cost! She seems the nation of Fate."
And the Swami with a smile, began chanting the Sanskrit for an
unwillingness to discuss politics.
Then he talked long of ancient Russian history, and of the
wandering tribes of Tartary, and of the Moorish rule in Spain, and
displaying an astonishing memory and research. To this childlike
interest in all things that touch him is doubtless due much of the
curious and universal knowledge that he seems to possess.
MARRIAGE
(New Discoveries, Vol. 5, p. 138.)
From Miss Josephine MacLeod's February 1908 letter to Mary Hale,
in which she described Swami Vivekananda's response to Alberta
Sturges's question:
ALBERTA STURGES: Is there no happiness in marriage?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Yes, Alberta, if marriage is entered into as a
great austerity - and everything is given up - even principle!
LINE OF DEMARCATION
(New Discoveries, Vol. 5, p. 225.)
From Mrs. Alice Hansbrough's reminiscences of a question-answer
exchange following the class entitled "Hints on Practical
Spirituality":
Q: Swami, if all things are one, what is the difference between a
cabbage and a man?
A: Stick a knife into your leg, and you will see the line of
demarcation.
GOD IS!
(New Discoveries, Vol. 5, p. 276.)
Alice Hansbrough's record of a question-answer session after a
class lecture:
Q: Then, Swami, what you claim is that all is good?
A: By no means. My claim is that all is not - only God is! That
makes all the difference.
RENUNCIATION
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 11-12.)
From Alice Hansbrough's reminiscences of a question-answer session
following one of Swami Vivekananda's San Francisco classes
pertaining to renunciation:
WOMAN STUDENT: Well, Swami, what would become of the world if
everyone renounced?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Madam, why do you come to me with that lie on
your lips? You have never considered anything in this world but
your own pleasure!
SHRI RAMAKRISHNA'S DISCIPLE
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 12.)
Mrs. Edith Allan described a teacher-student exchange in one of
Swami Vivekananda's San Francisco classes:
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: I am the disciple of a man who could not write
his own name, and I am not worthy to undo his shoes. How often
have I wished I could take my intellect and throw it into the
Ganges!
STUDENT: But, Swami, that is the part of you I like best.
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: That is because you are a fool, Madam - like I
am.
THE MASTER'S DIVINE INCARNATION
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 17.)
From Mrs. Edith Allan's reminiscences:
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: I have to come back once more. The Master said
I am to come back once more with him.
MRS. ALLAN: You have to come back because Shri Ramakrishna says
so?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Souls like that have great power, Madam.
A PRIVATE ADMISSION
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 121.)
From Mrs. Edith Allan's reminiscences of Swami Vivekananda's stay
in northern California, 1900:
WOMAN STUDENT: Oh, if I had only lived earlier, I could have seen
Shri Ramakrishna!
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA (turning quietly to her): You say that, and you
have seen me?
A GREETING
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 136.)
From Mr. Thomas Allan's reminiscences of Swami Vivekananda's visit
to Alameda, California, 1900:
MR. ALLAN: Well, Swami, I see you are in Alameda!
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: No, Mr. Allan, I am not in Alameda; Alameda is
in me.
"THIS WORLD IS A CIRCUS RING"
(New Discoveries, Vol. 6, p. 156.)
From Mrs. Alice Hansbrough's reminiscences of Swami Vivekananda's
conversation with Miss Bell at Camp Taylor, California, in May
1900:
MISS BELL: This world is an old schoolhouse where we come to learn
our lessons.
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Who told you that? [Miss Bell could not
remember.] Well, I don't think so. I think this world is a circus
ring in which we are the clowns tumbling.
MISS BELL: Why do we tumble, Swami?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Because we like to tumble. When we get tired,
we will quit.
ON KALI
(The Complete Works of Sister Nivedita, Vol. I, p. 118.)
Sister Nivedita's reminiscence of a conversation with Swami
Vivekananda at the time she was learning the Kâli worship:
SISTER NIVEDITA: Perhaps, Swamiji, Kali is the vision of Shiva! Is
She?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: Well! Well! Express it in your own way. Express
it in your own way!
TRAINING UNDER SHRI RAMAKRISHNA
(The Complete Works of Sister Nivedita, Vol. I, pp. 159-60.)
While on board a ship to England, Swami Vivekananda was touched by
the childlike devotion of the ship's servants:
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: You see, I love our Mohammedans!
SISTER NIVEDITA: Yes, but what I want to understand is this habit
of seeing every people from their strongest aspect. Where did it
come from? Do you recognize it in any historical character? Or is
it in some way derived from Shri Ramakrishna?
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA: It must have been the training under
Ramakrishna Paramahamsa. We all went by his path to some extent.
Of course it was not so difficult for us as he made it for
himself. He would eat and dress like the people he wanted to
understand, take their initiation, and use their language. "One
must learn", he said, "to put oneself into another man's very
soul". And this method was his own! No one ever before in India
became Christian and Mohammedan and Vaishnava, by turn!
Excerpts from Sister Nivedita's Book
NOTES OF SOME WANDERINGS WITH THE
SWAMI VIVEKANANDA
[Excerpts from the book by Sister Nivedita]
Note: In the following work only those extracts which present
Swami Vivekananda’s ideas or direct quotations have been printed.
Descriptions marking the background context of these talks have
also been retained for the sake of clarity and continuity.
Ellipses mark the deleted portions. Spelling and punctuation have
been made to conform to the style of the Complete Works.
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FOREWORD
PERSONS: The Swami Vivekananda, Gurubhais, (Spiritual brethren;
disciples of one and the same master are so called.) and a party
of European guests and disciples, amongst whom were Dhira Mata,
the "Steady Mother" [Mrs. Ole Bull]; one whose name was Jaya [Miss
Josephine MacLeod]; and Sister Nivedita. (Dhira Mata and Jaya were
Americans; Nivedita was British. - Publisher.)
PLACE: Different parts of India.
TIME: The year 1898.
Beautiful have been the days of this year. In them the Ideal has
become the Real. First in our riverside cottage at Belur; then in
the Himalayas, at Naini Tal and Almora; afterwards wandering here
and there through Kashmir - everywhere have come hours never to be
forgotten, words that will echo through our lives forever, and
once, at least, a glimpse of the Beatific Vision.
It has been all play.
We have seen a love that would be one with the humblest and most
ignorant, seeing the world for the moment through his eyes, as if
criticism were not; we have laughed over the colossal caprice of
genius; we have warmed ourselves at heroic fires; and we have been
present, as it were, at the awakening of the Holy Child.
But there has been nothing grim or serious about any of these
things. Pain has come close to all of us. Solemn anniversaries
have been and gone. But sorrow was lifted into a golden light,
where it was made radiant and did not destroy.Fain, if I could,
would I describe our journeys. Even as I write I see the irises in
bloom at Baramulla; the young rice beneath the poplars at
Islamabad; starlight scenes in Himalayan forests; and the royal
beauties of Delhi and the Taj. One longs to attempt some memorial
of these. It would be worse than useless. Not, then, in words, but
in the light of memory they are enshrined forever, together with
the kindly and gentle folk who dwell among them and whom we trust
always to have left the gladder for our coming.
We have learnt something of the mood in which new faiths are born
and of the persons who inspire such faiths. For we have been with
one who drew all men to him - listening to all, feeling with all
and refusing none. We have known a humility that wiped out all
littleness, a renunciation that would die for scorn of oppression
and pity of the oppressed, a love that would bless even the
oncoming feet of torture and of death. We have joined hands with
that woman who washed the feet of the Lord with her tears and
wiped them with the hairs of her head. We have lacked not the
occasion, but her passionate consciousness of self.
Seated under a tree in the garden of dead emperors there came to
us a vision of all the rich and splendid things of Earth, offering
themselves as a shrine for the great of soul. The storied windows
of cathedrals and the jewelled thrones of kings, the banners of
great captains and the vestments of the priests, the pageants of
cities and the retreats of the proud - all came and all were
rejected.
In the garments of the beggar, despised by the alien, worshipped
by the people, we have seen him; and only the bread of toil, the
shelter of cottage roofs, and the common road across the
cornfields seem real enough for the background to this life.. . .
Amongst his own the ignorant loved him as much as scholars and
statesmen. The boatmen watched the river, in his absence, for his
return, and servants disputed with guests to do him service. And
through it all the veil of playfulness was never dropped. "They
played with the Lord" and instinctively they knew it.
To those who have known such hours, life is richer and sweeter,
and in the long nights even the wind in the palm trees seems to
cry: "Mahadeva! Mahadeva! Mahadeva!"
CHAPTER I
THE HOUSE ON THE GANGES
PLACE: A cottage at Belur, beside the Ganges.
TIME: March to May, 1898.
Of the home by the Ganges the Master had said to one, "You will
find that little house of Dhira Mata like heaven, for it is all
love, from beginning to end.
It was so indeed. Within, an unbroken harmony, and without,
everything alike beautiful - the green stretch of grass, the tall
coconut palms, the little brown villages in the jungle, and the
Nilkantha that built her nest in a tree - top beside us, on
purpose to bring us the blessings of Shiva. In the morning the
shadows lay behind the house, but in the afternoons we could sit
in front worshipping the Ganges herself - great leonine mother! -
and in sight of Dakshineswar.
There came one and another with traditions of the past, and we
learnt of the Master's eight years' wanderings; of the name
changed from village to village; of the Nirvikalpa Samâdhi; and of
that sacred sorrow, too deep for words or for common sight, that
one who loved had alone seen. And there too came the Master
himself, with his stories of Umâ and Shiva, of Râdhâ and Krishna,
and his fragments of song and poetry.
It seemed as if he knew that the first material of a new
consciousness must be a succession of vivid but isolated
experiences, poured out without proper sequence so as to provoke
the mind of the learner to work for its own conception of order
and relation. . . . For the most part it was the Indian religions
that he portrayed for us-today dealing with one and tomorrow with
another - his choice guided, seemingly, by the whim of the moment.
But it was not religion only that he poured out upon us. Sometimes
it would be history. Again, it would be folk-lore. On still
another occasion it would be the manifold anomalies and
inconsistencies of race, caste and custom. In fact India herself
became, as heard in him, as the last and noblest of the Purânas,
uttering itself through his lips.
Another point in which he had caught a great psychological secret
was that of never trying to soften for us that which would at
first sight be difficult or repellent. In matters Indian he would
rather put forward, in its extreme form at the beginning of our
experience, all that might seem impossible for European minds to
enjoy. Thus he would quote, for instance, some verses about Gauri
and Shankar in a single form:
On one side grows the hair in long black curls,
And on the other, corded like rope.
On one side are seen the beautiful garlands,
On the other, bone earrings and snake-like coils.
One side is white with ashes, like the snow mountains,
The other, golden as the light of dawn.
For He, the Lord, took a form,
And that was a divided form,
Half-woman and half-man
. . . . . . .
Whatever might be the subject of the conversation, it ended always
on the note of the infinite. . . . He might appear to take up any
subject - literary, ethnological or scientific - but he always
made us feel it as an illustration of the Ultimate Vision. There
was for him nothing secular. He had a loathing for bondage and a
horror of those who "cover chains with flowers", but he never
failed to make the true critic's distinction between this and the
highest forms of art.
One day we were receiving European guests and he entered into a
long talk about Persian poetry. Then suddenly, finding himself
quoting the poem that says, "For one mole on the face of my
Beloved, I would give all the wealth of Samarkand!" he turned and
said energetically, "I would not give a straw, you know, for the
man who was incapable of appreciating a love song!" His talk too
teemed with epigrams.
It was that same afternoon, in the course of a long political
argument, that he said, "In order to become a nation, it appears
that we need a common hate as well as a common love". Several
months later he remarked that before one who had a mission he
never talked of any of the gods save Uma and Shiva. For Shiva and
the Mother made the great workers. Yet I have sometimes wondered
if he knew at this time how the end of every theme was Bhakti.
Much as he dreaded the luxury of spiritual emotion for those who
might be enervated by it, he could not help giving glimpses of
what it meant to be consumed with the intoxication of God. And so
he would chant for us such poems as:
They have made Radha queen, in the beautiful groves of Vrindaban.
At her gate stands Krishna, on guard.
His flute is singing all the time:
Radha is about to distribute infinite wealth of love.
Though I am guard, all the world may enter.
Come all ye who thirst! Say only 'Glory unto Radha!'
Enter the region of love!
Or he would give us the great antiphonal Chorus of the Cowherds,
written by his friend: (The Bengali dramatist Girish Chandra
Ghosh.)
Men: Thou art the Soul of souls,
Thou yellow-garbed,
With thy blue eyes.
Women: Thou dark One! Thou
Shepherd of Vrindaban!
Kneeling at the feet of the Shepherdesses.
Men: My soul sings the praise of the glory
of the Lord,
Who took the human form.
Women: Thy beauty for us, the Gopis.
Men: Thou Lord of Sacrifice.
Saviour of the weak.
Women: Who lovest Radha and thy body floats on its
own tears.
. . . . . .
MARCH 25.
. . . At this time the Swami kept the custom of coming to the
cottage early and spending the morning hours there, and again
returning in the late afternoon. On the second morning of this
visit, however - Friday, the Christian feast of the Annunciation -
he took us all three back to the Math, and there in the
worship-room was held a little service of initiation where one was
made a Brahmachârini. That was the happiest of mornings.
After the service we were taken upstairs. The Swami put on the
ashes and bone-earrings and matted locks of a Shiva-Yogi and sang
and played to us - Indian music on Indian instruments - for an
hour.
And in the evening in our boat on the Ganges, he opened his heart
to us and told us much of his questions and anxieties regarding
the trust that he held from his own Master.
Another week and he was gone to Darjeeling; and till the day that
the plague declaration brought him back, we saw him again no more.
MAY 3.
Then two of us met him in the house of our Holy Mother. The
political sky was black. It seemed as if a storm were about to
burst. . . . Plague, panic and riot were doing their fell work.
And the Master turned to the two and said, "There are some who
scoff at the existence of Kâli. Yet today She is out there amongst
the people. They are frantic with fear, and the soldiery have been
called to deal out death. Who can say that God does not manifest
Himself as evil as well as good? But only the Hindu dares to
worship Him in the evil".
He had come back and the old life was resumed once more, as far as
could be, seeing that an epidemic was in prospect and that
measures were on hand to give the people confidence. As long as
this possibility darkened the horizon, he would not leave
Calcutta. But it passed away, and those happy days with it, and
the time came that we should go.
CHAPTER II
AT NAINI TAL AND ALMORA
PERSONS: The Swami Vivekananda, Gurubhâis, and a party of
Europeans and disciples, amongst whom were Dhira Mata, the "Steady
Mother"; one whose name was Jaya; and Nivedita.
PLACE: The Himalayas.
TIME: May 11 to May 25, 1898.
We were a large party, or, indeed, two parties, that left Howrah
station on Wednesday evening and on Friday morning came in sight
of the Himalayas. . . .
Naini Tal was made beautiful by three things - the Master's
pleasure in introducing to us his disciple the Raja of Khetri; the
dancing girls who met us and asked us where to find him, and were
received by him in spite of the remonstrances of others; and by
the Mohammedan gentleman who said, "Swamiji, if in after-times any
claim you as an Avatâra, an especial incarnation of the Deity -
remember that I, a Mohammedan, am the first!"
It was here too that we heard a long talk on Ram Mohan Roy in
which he pointed out three things as the dominant notes of this
teacher's message - his acceptance of the Vedanta, his preaching
of patriotism, and the love that embraced the Mussulman equally
with the Hindu. In all these things he claimed himself to have
taken up the task that the breadth and foresight of Ram Mohan Roy
had mapped out. The incident of the dancing girls occurred in
consequence of our visit to the two temples at the head of the
tarn. . . . Here, offering worship, we found two nautch-women.
When they had finished, they came up to us, and we, in broken
language, entered into conversation with them. We took them for
respectable ladies of the town and were much astonished later at
the storm which had evidently passed over the Swami's audience at
his refusal to have them turned away. Am I mistaken in thinking
that it was in connection with these dancing-women of Naini Tal
that he first told us the story, many times repeated, of the
nautch-girl of Khetri? He had been angry at the invitation to see
her, but being prevailed upon to come, she sang:
O Lord, look not upon my evil qualities!
Thy name, O Lord, is Same-Sightedness.
Make us both the same Brahman! One piece of iron is the knife in
the hand of the butcher,
And another piece of iron is the image in the temple.
But when they touch the philosopher's stone,
Both alike turn to gold! One drop of water is in the sacred
Jamuna,
And one is foul in a ditch by the roadside.
But when they fall into the Ganges,
Both alike become holy! So, Lord, look not upon my evil qualities!
Thy name, O Lord, is Same-Sightedness.
Make us both the same Brahman!
And then, said the Master of himself, the scales fell from his
eyes, and seeing that all are indeed one, he condemned no more. .
. .
It was late in the afternoon when we left Naini Tal for Almora,
and night overtook us while still travelling through the forest. .
. . till we reached a quaintly placed Dak bungalow, on the
mountain side in the midst of trees. There after some time Swamiji
arrived with his party, full of fun and keen in his appreciation
of everything that concerned the comfort of his guests. . . .From
the day that we arrived at Almora the Swami renewed his habit of
coming over to us at our early breakfast and spending some hours
in talk. Then and always he was an exceedingly light sleeper, and
I imagine that his visit to us, early as the hour might be, was
often paid during the course of his return with his monks from a
still earlier walk. Sometimes, but rarely, we saw him again in the
evening, either meeting him when out for a walk or going ourselves
to Captain Sevier's, where he and his party were staying, and
seeing him there. And once he came at that time to call on us.
Into these morning talks at Almora a strange new element, painful
but salutary to remember, had crept. There appeared to be on the
one side a curious bitterness and distrust, and on the other,
irritation and defiance. The youngest of the Swami's disciples at
this time, it must be remembered, was an English woman, and of how
much this fact meant intellectually - what a strong bias it
implied, and always does imply, in the reading of India, what an
idealism of the English race and all their deeds and history - the
Swami himself had had no conception till the day after her
initiation at the monastery. Then he had asked her some exultant
question, as to which nation she now belonged, and had been
startled to find with what a passion of loyalty and worship she
regarded the English flag, giving to it much of the feeling that
an Indian woman would give to her Thakur. His surprise and
disappointment at the moment were scarcely perceptible. A startled
look, no more. Nor did his discovery of the superficial way in
which this disciple had joined herself with his people in any
degree affect his confidence and courtesy during the remaining
weeks spent in the plains.
But with Almora it seemed as if a going-to-school had commenced. .
. . It was never more than this; never the dictating of opinion or
creed; never more than emancipation from partiality. Even at the
end of the terrible experience when this method, as regarded race
and country, was renounced, never to be taken up systematically
again, the Swami did not call for any confession of faith, any
declaration of new opinion. He dropped the whole question. His
listener went free. But he had revealed a different standpoint in
thought and feeling, so completely and so strongly as to make it
impossible for her to rest, until later, by her own labours, she
had arrived at a view in which both these partial presentments
stood rationalized and accounted for. "Really, patriotism like
yours is sin!" he exclaimed once, many weeks later, when the
process of obtaining an uncoloured judgement on some incident had
been more than commonly exasperating. "All that I want you to see
is that most people's actions are the expression of self-interest,
and you constantly oppose to this the idea that a certain race are
all angels. Ignorance so determined is wickedness!" . . .
These morning talks at Almora, then, took the form of assaults
upon deep-rooted preconceptions - social, literary and artistic -
or of long comparisons of Indian and European history and
sentiments, often containing extended observations of very great
value. One characteristic of the Swami was the habit of attacking
the abuses of a country or society openly and vigorously when he
was in its midst, whereas after he had left it, it would often
seem as if nothing but its virtues were remembered by him. He was
always testing his disciples, and the manner of these particular
discourses was probably adopted in order to put to the proof the
courage and sincerity of one who was both woman and European.
CHAPTER III
MORNING TALKS AT ALMORA
PLACE: Almora.
TIME: May and June, 1898.
The first morning the talk was that of the central ideals of
civilization - in the West, truth; in the East, chastity. He
justified Hindu marriage customs as springing from the pursuit of
this ideal and from the woman's need of protection, in
combination. And he traced out the relation of the whole subject
to the philosophy of the Absolute.
Another morning he began by observing that as there were four main
castes - Brahmin, Kshatriya, Bâniyâ [Vaishya], Shudra - so there
were four great national functions: the religious or priestly,
fulfilled by the Hindus; the military, by the Roman Empire; the
mercantile, by England today; and the democratic, by America in
the future. And here he launched off into a glowing prophetic
forecast of how America would yet solve the problems of the Shudra
- the problems of freedom and co-operation - and turned to relate
to a non-American listener the generosity of the arrangements
which that people had attempted to make for their aborigines.
Again it would be an eager résumé of the history of India or of
the Moguls, whose greatness never wearied him. Every now and then
throughout the summer he would break out into descriptions of
Delhi and Agra. Once he described the Taj as "a dimness, and again
a dimness, and there - a grave!"
Another time he spoke of Shah Jehan, and then, with a burst of
enthusiasm: "Ah! He was the glory of his line! A feeling for and
discrimination of beauty that are unparalleled in history. And an
artist himself! I have seen a manuscript illuminated by him which
is one of the art treasures of India. What a genius!" Oftener
still, it was Akbar of whom he would tell, almost with tears in
his voice and a passion easier to understand, beside that undomed
tomb, open to sun and wind - the grave of Secundra at Agra.
But all the more universal forms of human feeling were open to the
Master. In one mood he talked of China as if she were the
treasure-house of the world, and told us of the thrill with which
he saw inscriptions in old Bengali (Kutil?) characters over the
doors of Chinese temples.
Few things could be more eloquent of the vagueness of Western
ideas regarding Oriental peoples than the fact that one of his
listeners alleged untruthfulness as a notorious quality of that
race. . . . The Swami would have none of it. Untruthfulness!
Social rigidity! What were these, except very, very relative
terms? And as to untruthfulness in particular, could commercial
life or social life or any other form of co-operation go on for a
day if men did not trust men? Untruthfulness as a necessity of
etiquette? And how was that different from the Western idea? Is
the Englishman always glad and always sorry at the proper place?
But there is still a difference of degree? Perhaps - but only of
degree!
Or he might wander as far afield as Italy, that "greatest of the
countries of Europe - land of religion and of art; alike of
imperial organization and of Mazzini; mother of ideas, of culture
and of freedom!
One day it was Shivaji and the Mahrattas and the year's wandering
as a Sannyâsin that won him home to Raigarh. "And to this day",
said the Swami, "authority in India dreads the Sannyasin, lest he
conceals beneath his yellow garb another Shivaji".
Often the enquiry "Who and what are the Aryans?" absorbed his
attention; and holding that their origin was complex, he would
tell us how in Switzerland he had felt himself to be in China, so
like were the types. He believed too that the same was true of
some parts of Norway. Then there were scraps of information about
countries and physiognomies, an impassioned tale of the Hungarian
scholar who traced the Huns to Tibet, and lies buried in
Darjeeling and so on. . . .Sometimes the Swami would deal with the
rift between Brahmins and Kshatriyas, painting the whole history
of India as a struggle between the two and showing that the latter
had always embodied the rising, fetter-destroying impulses of the
nation. He could give excellent reason too for the faith that was
in him that the Kâyasthas of modern Bengal represented the
pre-Mauryan Kshatriyas. He would portray the two opposing types of
culture: the one, classical, intensive and saturated with an
ever-deepening sense of tradition and custom; the other, defiant,
impulsive and liberal in its outlook. It was part of a deep-lying
law of the historic development that Râma, Krishna and Buddha had
all arisen in the kingly, and not in the priestly caste. And in
this paradoxical moment Buddhism was reduced to a caste-smashing
formula - "a religion invented by the Kshatriyas" as a crushing
rejoinder to Brahminism!
That was a great hour indeed when he spoke of Buddha; for,
catching a word that seemed to identify him with its
anti-Brahminical spirit, an uncomprehending listener said, "Why,
Swami, I did not know that you were a Buddhist!
"Madam", he said, rounding on her, his whole face aglow with the
inspiration of that name, "I am the servant of the servants of the
servants of Buddha. Who was there ever like him? - the Lord - who
never performed one action for himself - with a heart that
embraced the whole world! So full of pity that he - prince and
monk - would give his life to save a little goat! So loving that
he sacrificed himself to the hunger of a tigress! - to the
hospitality of a pariah and blessed him! And he came into my room
when I was a boy and I fell at his feet! For I knew it was the
Lord Himself!
Many times he spoke of Buddha in this fashion, sometimes at Belur
and sometimes afterwards. And once he told us the story of
Ambâpâli, the beautiful courtesan who feasted him. . . .
National feeling did not have it all its own way. For one morning
when the chasm seemed to be widest, there was a long talk on
Bhakti - that perfect identity with the Beloved that the devotion
of Ray Ramananda, the Bengali nobleman, before Chaitanya so
beautifully illustrates:
Four eyes met. There were changes in two souls.
And now I cannot remember whether he is a man
And I a woman, or he a woman and I a man!
All I know is, there were two, Love came, and
there is one!
It was that same morning that he talked of the Babists of Persia,
in their era of martyrdom - of the woman who inspired and the man
who worshipped and worked. And doubtless then he expatiated on
that theory of his - somewhat quaint and surprising to
unaccustomed minds, not so much for the matter of the statement as
for the explicitness of the expression - of the greatness and
goodness of the young, who can love without seeking personal
expression for their love, and their high potentiality.
Another day coming at sunrise when the snows could be seen,
dawn-lighted, from the garden, it was Shiva and Umâ on whom he
dwelt - and that was Shiva up there, the white snow-peaks, and the
light that fell upon Him was the Mother of the World! For a
thought on which at this time he was dwelling much was that God is
the Universe - not within it or outside it and not the universe
God or the image of God, but He it, and the All.
Sometimes all through the summer he would sit for hours telling us
stories, those cradle-tales of Hinduism whose function is not at
all that of our nursery fictions, but much more like the
man-making myths of the old Hellenic world. Best of all these I
thought was the story of Shuka, and we looked on the
Shiva-mountains and the bleak scenery of Almora the evening we
heard it for the first time. . . .
Shuka was indeed the Swami's saint. He was the type, to him, of
that highest realization to which life and the world are merely
play. Long after, we learned how Shri Ramakrishna had spoken of
him in his boyhood as "my Shuka". And never can I forget the look,
as of one gazing far into depths of joy, with which he once stood
and quoted the words of Shiva in praise of the deep spiritual
significance of the Bhagavad-Gitâ and of the greatness of Shuka:
"I know the real meaning of the teachings of the Bhagavad-Gita,
and Shuka knows, and perhaps Vyâsa knows - a little!" Another day
in Almora the Swami talked of the great humanizing lives that had
arisen in Bengal, at the long inrolling wash of the first wave of
modern consciousness on the ancient shores of Hindu culture. Of
Ram Mohan Roy we had already heard from him at Naini Tal. And now
of the Pundit Vidyâsâgar he exclaimed, "There is not a man of my
age in northern India on whom his shadow has not fallen!" It was a
great joy to him to remember that these men and Shri Ramakrishna
had all been born within a few miles of each other.
The Swami introduced Vidyasagar to us now as "the hero of widow
remarriage and of the abolition of polygamy". But his favourite
story about him was of that day when he went home from the
Legislative Council, pondering over the question of whether or not
to adopt English dress on such occasions. Suddenly someone came up
to a fat Mogul who was proceeding homewards in leisurely and
pompous fashion in front of him, with the news "Sir, your house is
on fire!" The Mogul went neither faster nor slower for this
information, and presently the messenger contrived to express a
discreet astonishment, whereupon his master turned on him angrily.
"Wretch!" he said. "Am I to abandon the gait of my ancestors
because a few sticks happen to be burning?" And Vidyasagar,
walking behind, determined to stick to the Châdar, Dhoti and
sandals, not even adopting coat and slippers.
The picture of Vidyasagar going into retreat for a month for the
study of the Shâstras, when his mother had suggested to him the
remarriage of child-widows, was very forcible. "He came out of his
retirement of opinion that they were not against such remarriage,
and he obtained the signatures of the pundits that they agreed in
this opinion. Then the action of certain native princes led the
pundits to abandon their own signatures so that, had the
government not determined to assist the movement, it could not
have been carried - and now", added the Swami, "the difficulty has
an economic rather than a social basis".
We could believe that a man who was able to discredit polygamy by
moral force alone, was "intensely spiritual". And it was wonderful
indeed to realize the Indian indifference to a formal creed when
we heard how this giant was driven by the famine of 1864 - when
140,000 people died of hunger and disease - to have nothing more
to do with God and become entirely agnostic in thought.
With this man, as one of the educators of Bengal, the Swami
coupled the name of David Hare, the old Scotsman and atheist to
whom the clergy of Calcutta refused Christian burial. He had died
of nursing an old pupil through cholera. So his own boys carried
his dead body and buried it in a swamp and made the grave a place
of pilgrimage. That place has now become College Square, the
educational centre, and his school is now within the university.
And to this day Calcutta students make pilgrimage to the tomb.
On this day we took advantage of the natural turn of the
conversation to cross-question the Swami as to the possible
influence that Christianity might have exerted over himself. He
was much amused to hear that such a statement had been hazarded,
and told us with much pride of his only contact with missionary
influences, in the person of his old Scotch master, Mr. Hastie.
This hot-headed old man lived on nothing and regarded his room as
his boys' home as much as his own. It was he who had first sent
the Swami to Shri Ramakrishna, and towards the end of his stay in
India he used to say, "Yes, my boy, you were right, you were
right! - It is true that all is God!" "I am proud of him!" cried
the Swami. "But I don't think you could say that he had
Christianized me much!" . . .
We heard charming stories too on less serious subjects. There was
the lodging-house in an American city, for instance, where he had
had to cook his own food, and where he would meet in the course of
operations "an actress who ate roast turkey every day, and a
husband and wife who lived by making ghosts". And when the Swami
remonstrated with the husband and tried to persuade him to give up
deceiving people, saying, "You ought not to do this!" the wife
would come up behind and say eagerly, "Yes, sir! That's just what
I tell him; for he makes all the ghosts, and Mrs. Williams takes
all the money!"
He told us also of a young engineer, an educated man, who, at a
spiritualistic gathering, "when the fat Mrs. Williams appeared
from behind the screen as his thin mother, exclaimed, 'Mother
dear, how you have grown in the spirit-world!' ""At this", said
the Swami, "my heart broke, for I thought there could be no hope
for the man". But never at a loss, he told the story of a Russian
painter who was ordered to paint the picture of a peasant's dead
father, the only description given being, "Man! Don't I tell you
he had a wart on his nose?" When at last, therefore, the painter
had made a portrait of some stray peasant and affixed a large wart
to the nose, the picture was declared to be ready, and the son was
told to come and see it. He stood in front of it, greatly
overcome, and said, "Father! Father! How changed you are since I
saw you last!" After this, the young engineer would never speak to
the Swami again, which showed at least that he could see the point
of a story. But at this the Hindu monk was genuinely astonished.
In spite of such general interests, however, the inner strife grew
high, and the thought pressed on the mind of one of the older
members of our party that the Master himself needed service and
peace. Many times he spoke with wonder of the torture of life, and
who can say how many signs there were of bitter need? A word or
two was spoken - little, but enough - and he, after many hours,
came back and told us that he longed for quiet and would go alone
to the forests and find soothing.
And then, looking up, he saw the young moon shining above us, and
he said, "The Mohammedans think much of the new moon. Let us also,
with the new moon, begin a new life!" And he blessed his daughter
with a great blessing so that she, thinking that her old
relationship was broken, nor dreaming that a new and deeper life
was being given to it, knew only that the hour was strange and
passing sweet. . . .
MAY 25
He went. It was Wednesday. And on Saturday he came back. He had
been in the silence of the forests ten hours each day, but on
returning to his tent in the evenings he had been surrounded with
so much eager attendance as to break the mood, and he had fled.
Yet he was radiant. He had discovered in himself the old-time
Sannyasin, able to go barefoot and endure heat, cold and scanty
fare, unspoilt by the West. . . .
JUNE 2.
. . . . . .
And then, as we sat working on Friday morning the telegram came, a
day late, that said: "Goodwin died last night at Ootacamund". Our
poor friend had, it appeared, been one of the first victims of
what was to prove an epidemic of typhoid fever. And it seemed that
with his last breath he had spoken of the Swami and longed for his
presence by his side.
JUNE 5.
On Sunday evening the Swami came home. Through our gate and over
the terrace his way brought him, and there we sat and talked with
him a moment. He did not know our news, but a great darkness hung
over him already, and presently he broke the silence to remind us
of that saint who had called the cobra's bite "messenger from the
Beloved", one whom he had loved second only to Shri Ramakrishna
himself. "I have just", he said, "received a letter that says:
'Pavhari Baba has completed all his sacrifices with the sacrifice
of his own body. He has burnt himself in his sacrificial fire'".
"Swami!" exclaimed someone from amongst his listeners. "Wasn't
that very wrong?"
"How can I tell?" said the Swami, speaking in great agitation. "He
was too great a man for me to judge. He knew himself what he was
doing."
Very little was said after this, and the party of monks passed on.
Not yet had the other news been broken.
JUNE 6.
Next morning he came early in a great mood. He had been up, he
said afterwards, since four. And one went out to meet him and told
him of Mr. Goodwin's death. The blow fell quietly. Some days later
he refused to stay in the place where he had received it, and
complained of the weakness that brought the image of his most
faithful disciple constantly into his mind. It was no more manly,
he protested, to be thus ridden by one's memory than to retain the
characteristics of the fish or the dog. Man must conquer this
illusion and know that the dead are here beside us and with us as
much as ever. It is their absence and separation that are a myth.
And then he would break out again with some bitter utterance
against the folly of imagining Personal Will to guide the
universe. "As if", he exclaimed, "it would not be one's right and
duty to fight such a God and slay Him for killing Goodwin! And
Goodwin, if he had lived, could have done so much!" And in India
one was free to recognize this as the most religious, because the
most unflinchingly truthful, mood of all!
And while I speak of this utterance, I may perhaps put beside it
another that I heard a year later, spoken out of the same fierce
wonder at the dreams with which we comfort ourselves. "Why!" he
said then. "Every petty magistrate and officer is allowed his
period of retirement and rest. Only God, the Eternal Magistrate,
must sit judging forever and never go free!"
But in these first hours the Swami was calm about his loss, and
sat down and chatted quietly with us. He was full that morning of
Bhakti passing into asceticism, the divine passion that carries
the soul on its high tides far out of reach of persons, yet leaves
it again struggling to avoid those sweet snares of personality.
What he said that morning of renunciation proved a hard gospel to
one of those who listened, and when he came again she put it to
him as her conviction that to love without attachment involved no
pain, and was in itself ideal.
He turned on her with a sudden solemnity. "What is this idea of
Bhakti without renunciation?" he said. "It is most pernicious!"
And standing there for an hour or more, he talked of the awful
self-discipline that one must impose on oneself if one would
indeed be unattached, of the requisite nakedness of selfish
motives, and of the danger that at any moment the most flower-like
soul might have its petals soiled with the grosser stains of life.
He told the story of an Indian nun who was asked when a man could
be certain of safety on this road, and who sent back for answer a
little plate of ashes. For the fight against passion was long and
fierce, and at any moment the conqueror might become the
conquered. . . .
. . . Weeks afterwards in Kashmir, when he was again talking in
some kindred fashion, one of us ventured to ask him if the feeling
he thus roused were not that worship of pain that Europe abhors as
morbid.
"Is the worship of pleasure, then, so noble?" was his immediate
answer. "But indeed", he added after a pause, "we worship neither
pain nor pleasure. We seek through either to come at that which
transcends them both".
JUNE 9.
This Thursday morning there was a talk on Krishna. It was
characteristic of the Swami's mind, and characteristic also of the
Hindu culture from which he had sprung, that he could lend himself
to the enjoyment and portrayal of an idea one day that the next
would see submitted to a pitiless analysis and left slain upon the
field. He was a sharer to the full in the belief of his people
that, provided an idea was spiritually true and consistent, it
mattered very little about its objective actuality. And this mode
of thought had first been suggested to him in his boyhood by his
own master. He had mentioned some doubt as to the authenticity of
a certain religious history. "What!" said Shri Ramakrishna. "Do
you not then think that those who could conceive such ideas must
have been the thing itself?"
The existence of Krishna, then, like that of Christ, he often told
us "in the general way" he doubted. Buddha and Mohammed alone
amongst religious teachers had been fortunate enough to have
"enemies as well as friends", so that their historical careers
were beyond dispute. As for Krishna, he was the most shadowy of
all. A poet, a cowherd, a great ruler, a warrior and a sage had
all perhaps been merged in one beautiful figure holding the Gitâ
in his hand.
But today Krishna was "the most perfect of the Avatâras". And a
wonderful picture followed of the charioteer who reined in his
horses while he surveyed the field of battle and in one brief
glance noted the disposition of the forces, at the same moment
that he commenced to utter to his royal pupil the deep spiritual
truths of the Gita.
And indeed as we went through the country sides of northern India
this summer, we had many chances of noting how deep this Krishna
myth had set its mark upon the people. The songs that dancers
chanted as they danced in the roadside hamlets were all of Râdhâ
and Krishna. And the Swami was fond of a statement, as to which
we, of course, could have no opinion, that the Krishna-worshippers
of India had exhausted the possibilities of the romantic motive in
lyric poetry. . . .
But throughout these days the Swami was fretting to be away and
alone. The place where he had heard of Mr. Goodwin's loss was
intolerable to him, and letters to be written and received
constantly renewed the wound. He said one day that Shri
Ramakrishna, while seeming to be all Bhakti, was really within all
Jnana; but he himself, apparently all Jnana, was full of Bhakti,
and that thereby he was apt to be as weak as any woman. One day he
carried off a few faulty lines of someone's writing and brought
back a little poem, which was sent to the widowed mother as his
memorial of her son. . . . [Vide "Requiescat in Pace", Complete
Works, IV]
And then, because there was nothing left of the original and he
feared that she who was corrected (because her lines had been "in
three metres") might be hurt, he expatiated, long and earnestly
upon the theme, that it was so much greater to feel poetically
than merely to string syllables together in rhyme and metre.
He might be very severe on a sympathy or an opinion that seemed in
his eyes sentimental or false. But an effort that failed found
always in the Master its warmest advocate and tenderest defence.
And how happy was that acknowledgment of the bereaved mother to
him when in the midst of her sorrow she wrote and thanked him for
the character of his influence over the son who had died so far
away!
JUNE 10.
It was our last afternoon at Almora that we heard the story of the
fatal illness of Shri Ramakrishna. Dr. Mahendra Lal Sarkar had
been called in and had pronounced the disease to be cancer of the
throat, leaving the young disciples with many warnings as to its
infectious nature. Half an hour later "Naren", as he then was,
came in and found them huddled together discussing the dangers of
the case. He listened to what they had been told and then, looking
down, saw at his feet the cup of gruel that had been partly taken
by Shri Ramakrishna and which must have contained in it the germs
of the fatal discharges of mucus and pus, as it came out in his
baffled attempts to swallow the thing on account of the stricture
of the food-passage in the throat. He picked it up and drank from
it before them all. Never was the infection of cancer mentioned
amongst the disciples again.
CHAPTER IV
ON THE WAY TO KATHGODAM
JUNE 11.
On Saturday morning we left Almora. It took us two days and a half
to reach Kathgodam. . . .
Somewhere en route near a curious old water-mill and deserted
forge, the Swami told Dhira Mata of a legend that spoke of this
hill-side as haunted by a race of centaur-like phantoms, and of an
experience known to him by which one had first seen forms there
and only afterwards heard the folk tale.
The roses were gone by this time, but a flower was in bloom that
crumbled at a touch, and he pointed this out because of its wealth
of associations in Indian poetry.
JUNE 12.
On Sunday afternoon we rested near the plains in what we took to
be an out-of-the-way hotel above a lake and fall, and there he
translated for us the Rudra prayer:
From the unreal lead us to the Real.
From darkness lead us unto light.
From death lead us to immortality.
Reach us through and through our self.
And evermore protect us - O Thou Terrible! -
From ignorance, by Thy sweet, compassionate face. He hesitated a
long time over the fourth line, thinking of rendering it, "Embrace
us in the heart of our heart". But at last he put his perplexity
to us, saying shyly, "The real meaning is, Reach us through and
through our self". He had evidently feared that this sentence,
with its extraordinary intensity, might not make good sense in
English. . . . I have understood that a more literal rendering
would be, "O Thou who art manifest only unto Thyself, manifest
Thyself also unto us!" I now regard his translation as a rapid and
direct transcript of the experience of Samâdhi itself. It tears
the living heart out of the Sanskrit, as it were, and renders it
again in an English form.
It was indeed an afternoon of translations, and he gave us
fragments of the great benediction after mourning, which is one of
the most beautiful of the Hindu sacraments:
The blissful winds are sweet to us.
The seas are showering bliss on us.
May the corn in our fields bring bliss to us.
May the plants and herbs bring bliss to us.
May the cattle give us bliss.
O Father in Heaven, be Thou blissful unto us!
Thy very dust of the earth is full of bliss.
And then, the voice dying down into meditation:
It is all bliss - all bliss - all bliss.
And again we had Suradâsa's song, which the Swami heard from the
nautch-girl at Khetri:
O Lord, look not upon my evil qualities!
Thy name, O Lord, is Same-Sightedness.
Make of us both the same Brahman! . . .
Was it that same day or some other that he told us of the old
Sannyâsin in Benares who saw him annoyed by troops of monkeys and,
afraid that he might turn and run, shouted, "Always face the
brute!"?
Those journeys were delightful. We were always sorry to reach a
destination. At this time it took us a whole afternoon to cross
the Terai by rail - that strip of malarial country on which, as he
reminded us, Buddha had been born. As we had come down the
mountain roads, we had met parties of country-folk fleeing to the
upper hills with their families and all their goods, to escape the
fever which would be upon them with the rains. And now in the
train there was the gradual change of vegetation to watch and the
Master's pleasure, greater than that of any proprietor, in showing
us the wild peacocks, or here and there an elephant or a train of
camels. . . .
CHAPTER V
ON THE WAY TO BARAMULLA
PERSONS: The Swami Vivekananda, Gurubhais, and a party of
Europeans and disciples, amongst whom were Dhira Mata, the "Steady
Mother"; one whose name was Jaya; and Nivedita.
PLACE: From Bareilly to Baramulla, Kashmir.
TIME: June 14 to 20, 1898.
JUNE 14.
We entered the Punjab next day, and great was the Swami's
excitement at the fact. It almost seemed as if he had been born
there, so close and special was his love for this province. He
talked of the girls at their spinning wheels listening to the
"So'ham! So'ham!" - I am He! I am He! Then, by a swift transition
he turned to the far past and unrolled for us the great historic
panorama of the advance of the Greeks on the Indus, the rise of
Chandragupta and the development of the Buddhistic empire. He was
determined this summer to find his way to Attock and see with his
own eyes the spot at which Alexander was turned back. He described
to us the Gandhara sculptures, which he must have seen in the
Lahore Museum the year before, and lost himself in indignant
repudiation of the absurd European claim that India had ever sat
at the feet of Greece in things artistic.
Then there were flying glimpses of long-expected cities -
Ludhiana, where certain trusty English disciples had lived as
children; Lahore, where his Indian lectures had ended; and so on.
We came too upon the dry gravel beds of many rivers and learnt
that the space between one pair was called the Doab and the area
containing them all, the Punjab. It was at twilight, crossing one
of these stony tracts, that he told us of that great vision which
came to him years ago, while he was still new to the ways of the
life of a monk, giving back to him, as he always afterwards
believed, the ancient mode of Sanskrit chanting.
"It was evening", he said, "in that age when the Aryans had only
reached the Indus. I saw an old man seated on the bank of the
great river. Wave upon wave of darkness was rolling in upon him,
and he was chanting from the Rig-Veda. Then I awoke and went on
chanting. They were the tones that we used long ago".
. . . Those who were constantly preoccupied with imagination
regarding their own past always aroused his contempt. But on this
occasion of telling the story, he gave a glimpse of it from a very
different point of view.
"Shankarâchârya", he was saying, "had caught the rhythm of the
Vedas, the national cadence. Indeed I always imagine", he went on
suddenly with dreamy voice and far-away look, "I always imagine
that he had some vision such as mine when he was young, and
recovered the ancient music that way. Anyway, his whole life's
work is nothing but that, the throbbing of the beauty of the Vedas
and Upanishads". . . .
From Rawalpindi to Murree we went by tonga, and there we spent
some days before setting out for Kashmir. Here the Swami came to
the conclusion that any effort which he might make to induce the
orthodox to accept a European as a fellow-disciple, or in the
direction of woman's education, had better be made in Bengal. The
distrust of the foreigner was too strong in Punjab to admit of
work succeeding there. He was much occupied by this question from
time to time, and would sometimes remark on the paradox presented
by the Bengali combination of political antagonism to the English,
and readiness to love and trust. . . .
JUNE 18.
. . . . . .
Most of the afternoon we were compelled by a storm to spend
indoors;, and a new chapter was opened at Dulai in our knowledge
of Hinduism, for the Swami told us gravely and frankly of its
modern abuses and spoke of his own uncompromising hostility to
those evil practices which pass under the name of Vâmâchâra.
When we asked how Shri Ramakrishna - who never could bear to
condemn the hope of any man - had looked at these things, he told
us that "the old man" had said, "Well, well! But every house may
have a scavengers' entrance!" And he pointed out that all sects of
diabolism in any country belonged to this class. . . .
JUNE 19.
We took it in turns to drive with the Swami in his tonga, and this
next day seemed full of reminiscence.
He talked of Brahmavidyâ, the vision of the One, the Alone - Real,
and told how love was the only cure for evil. He had had a
schoolfellow who grew up and became rich, but lost his health. It
was an obscure disease, sapping his energy and vitality daily, yet
altogether baffling the skill of the doctors. At last, because he
knew that the Swami had always been religious, and men turn to
religion when all else fails, he sent to beg him to come to him.
When the Master reached him a curious thing happened. There came
to his mind a text: "Him the Brahmin conquers who thinks that he
is separate from the Brahmin. Him the Kshatriya conquers who
thinks that he is separate from the Kshatriya. And him the
universe conquers who thinks that he is separate from the
universe". And the sick man grasped this and recovered. "And so",
said the Swami, "though I often say strange things and angry
things, yet remember that in my heart I never seriously mean to
preach anything but love! All these things will come right only
when we realize that we love each other". Was it then, or the day
before, that talking of the great God, he told us how when he was
a child his mother would sigh over his naughtiness and say, "So
many prayers and austerities, and instead of a good soul, Shiva
has sent me you!" till he was hypnotized into a belief that he was
really one of Shiva's demons. He thought that for a punishment he
had been banished for a while from Shiva's heaven, and that his
one effort in life must be to go back there.
His first act of sacrilege, he told us once, had been committed at
the age of five when he embarked on a stormy argument with his
mother, to the effect that when his right hand was soiled with
eating, it would be cleaner to lift his tumbler of water with the
left. For this or similar perversities her most drastic remedy was
to put him under the water tap and, while cold water was pouring
over his head, to say "Shiva! Shiva!" This, he said, never failed
of its effect. The prayer would remind him of his exile, and he
would say to himself, "No, no, not this time again!" and so return
to quiet and obedience.
He had a surpassing love for Mahâdeva, and once he said of the
Indian women of the future that if, amidst their new tasks, they
would only remember now and then to say "Shiva! Shiva!" it would
be worship enough. The very air of the Himalayas was charged for
him with the image of that "eternal meditation" that no thought of
pleasure could break. And he understood, he said, for the first
time this summer, the meaning of the nature-story that made the
Ganges fall on the head of the great God, and wander in and out
amongst His matted locks before She found an outlet on the plains
below. He had searched long, he said, for the words that the
rivers and waterfalls uttered, amongst the mountains, before he
had realized that it was the eternal cry "Bom! Bom! Hara! Hara!"
"Yes!" he said of Shiva one day, "He is the great God - calm,
beautiful, and silent! And I am His great worshipper".
Again his subject was marriage, as the type of the soul's relation
to God. "This is why", he exclaimed, "though the love of a mother
is in some ways greater, yet the whole world takes the love of man
and woman as the type. No other has such tremendous idealizing
power. The beloved actually becomes what he is imagined to be.
This love transforms its object".
Then the talk strayed to national types, and he spoke of the joy
with which the returning traveller greets once more the sight of
the men and women of his own country. The whole of life has been a
subconscious education to enable one to understand in these every
faintest ripple of expression in face and form.
And again we passed a group of Sannyâsins going on foot, and he
broke out into fierce invective against asceticism as "savagery" .
. . . But the sight of wayfarers doing slow miles on foot in the
name of their ideals seemed to rouse in his mind a train of
painful associations, and he grew impatient on behalf of humanity
at "the torture of religion". Then again the mood passed as
suddenly as it had arisen and gave place to the equally strong
statement of the conviction that were it not for this "savagery",
luxury would have robbed man of all his manliness.
We stopped that evening at Uri Dak bungalow, and in the twilight
we all walked in the meadows and the bazaar. How beautiful the
place was! A little mud fortress - exactly of the European feudal
pattern - overhung the footway as it swept into a great open
theatre of field and hill. Along the road above the river lay the
bazaar, and we returned to the bungalow by a path across the
fields, past cottages in whose gardens the roses were in bloom. As
we came, too, it would happen that here and there some child more
venturesome than others would play with us.
JUNE 20.
The next day, driving through the most beautiful part of the pass
and seeing cathedral rocks and an old ruined temple of the sun, we
reached Baramulla. The legend is that the Vale of Kashmir was once
a lake and that at this point the Divine Boar pierced the
mountains with his tusks and let the Jhelum go free. Another piece
of geography in the form of myth. Or is it also prehistoric
history?