Think on These Things
Chapter 17
I DON'T KNOW IF on your walks you have noticed a long, narrow
pool beside the river. Some fishermen must have dug it, and it
is not connected with the river. The river is flowing steadily,
deep and wide, but this pool is heavy with scum because it is
not connected with the life of the river, and there are no fish
in it. It is a stagnant pool, and the deep river, full of life
and vitality, flows swiftly along.
Now, don't you think human beings are like that? They dig a
little pool for themselves away from the swift current of life,
and in that little pool they stagnate, die; and this stagnation,
this decay we call existence. That is, we all want a state of
permanency; we want certain desires to last for ever, we want
pleasures to have no end. We dig a little hole and barricade
ourselves in it with our families, with our ambitions, our
cultures, our fears, our gods, our various forms of worship, and
there we die, letting life go by - that life which is
impermanent, constantly changing, which is so swift, which has
such enormous depths, such extraordinary vitality and beauty.
Have you not noticed that if you sit quietly on the banks of the
river you hear its song - the lapping of the water, the sound of
the current going by? There is always a sense of movement, an
extraordinary movement towards the wider and the deeper. But in
the little pool there is no movement at all, its water is
stagnant. And if you observe you will see that this is what most
of us want: little stagnant pools of existence away from life.
We say that our pool-existence is right, and we have invented a
philosophy to justify it; we have developed social, political,
economic and religious theories in support of it, and we don't
want to be disturbed because, you see, what we are after is a
sense of permanency. Do you know what it means to seek
permanency? It means wanting the pleasurable to continue
indefinitely and wanting that which is not pleasurable to end as
quickly as possible. We want the name that we bear to be known
and to continue through family through property. We want a sense
of permanency in our relationships, in our activities, which
means that we are seeking a lasting, continuous life in the
stagnant pool; we don't want any real changes there, so we have
built a society which guarantees us the permanency of property,
of name, of fame.
But you see, life is not like that at all; life is not
permanent. Like the leaves that fall from a tree, all things are
impermanent, nothing endures; there is always change and death.
Have you ever noticed a tree standing naked against the sky, how
beautiful it is? All its branches are outlined, and in its
nakedness there is a poem, there is a song. Every leaf is gone
and it is waiting for the spring. When the spring comes it again
fills the tree with the music of many leaves, which in due
season fall and are blown away; and that is the way of life.
But we don't want anything of that kind. We cling to our
children, to our traditions, to our society, to our names and
our little virtues, because we want permanency; and that is why
we are afraid to die. We are afraid to lose the things we know.
But life is not what we would like it to be; life is not
permanent at all. Birds die, snow melts away, trees are cut down
or destroyed by storms, and so on. But we want everything that
gives us satisfaction to be permanent; we want our position, the
authority we have over people, to endure. We refuse to accept
life as it is in fact.
The fact is that life is like the river: endlessly moving on,
ever seeking, exploring, pushing, overflowing its banks,
penetrating every crevice with its water. But, you see, the mind
won't allow that to happen to itself. The mind sees that it is
dangerous, risky to live in a state of impermanency, insecurity,
so it builds a wall around itself: the wall of tradition, of
organized religion, of political and social theories. Family,
name, property, the little virtues that we have cultivated -
these are all within the walls, away from life. Life is moving,
impermanent, and it ceaselessly tries to penetrate, to break
down these walls, behind which there is confusion and misery.
The gods within the walls are all false gods, and their writings
and philosophies have no meaning because life is beyond them.
Now, a mind that has no walls, that is not burdened with its own
acquisitions, accumulations, with its own knowledge, a mind that
lives timelessly, insecurely - to such a mind, life is an
extraordinary thing. Such a mind is life itself, because life
has no resting place. But most of us want a resting place; we
want a little house, a name, a position, and we say these things
are very important. We demand permanency and create a culture
based on this demand, inventing gods which are not gods at all
but merely a projection of our own desires.
A mind which is seeking permanency soon stagnates; like that
pool along the river, it is soon full of corruption, decay. Only
the mind which has no walls, no foothold, no barrier, no resting
place, which is moving completely with life, timelessly pushing
on, exploring, exploding - only such a mind can be happy,
eternally new, because it is creative in itself.
Do you understand what I am talking about? You should, because
all this is part of real education and, when you understand it,
your whole life will be transformed, your relationship with the
world, with your neighbour, with your wife or husband, will have
a totally different meaning. Then you won't try to fulfil
yourself through anything, seeing that the pursuit of fulfilment
only invites sorrow and misery. That is why you should ask your
teachers about all this and discuss it among yourselves. If you
understand it, you will have begun to understand the
extraordinary truth of what life is, and in that understanding
there is great beauty and love, the flowering of goodness. But
the efforts of a mind that is seeking a pool of security, of
permanency, can only lead to darkness and corruption. Once
established in the pool, such a mind is afraid to venture out,
to seek, to explore; but truth, God, reality or what you will,
lies beyond the pool.
Do you know what religion is? It is not the chant, it is not in
the performance of puja, or any other ritual, it is not in the
worship of tin gods or stone images, it is not in the temples
and churches, it is not in the reading of the Bible or the Gita,
it is not in the repeating of a sacred name or in the following
of some other superstition invented by men. None of this is
religion.
Religion is the feeling of goodness that love which is like the
river living moving everlastingly. In that state you will find
there comes a moment when there is no longer any search at all;
and this ending of search is the beginning of something totally
different. The search for God, for truth, the feeling of being
completely good - not the cultivation of goodness, of humility,
but the seeking out of something beyond the inventions and
tricks of the mind, which means having a feeling for that
something, living in it, being it - that is true religion. But
you can do that only when you leave the pool you have dug for
yourself and go out into the river of life. Then life has an
astonishing way of taking care of you, because then there is no
taking care on your part. Life carries you where it will because
you are part of itself; then there is no problem of security, of
what people say or don't say, and that is the beauty of life.
Questioner: What makes us fear death?
Krishnamurti: Do you think a leaf that falls to the ground is
afraid of death? Do you think a bird lives in fear of dying? It
meets death when death comes; but it is not concerned about
death, it is much too occupied with living, with catching
insects, building a nest, singing a song, flying for the very
joy of flying. Have you ever watched birds soaring high up in
the air without a beat of their wings, being carried along by
the wind? How endlessly they seem to enjoy themselves! They are
not concerned about death. If death comes, it is all right, they
are finished. There is no concern about what is going to happen;
they are living from moment to moment, are they not? It is we
human beings who are always concerned about death - because we
are not living. That is the trouble: we are dying, we are not
living. The old people are near the grave, and the young ones
are not far behind.
You see, there is this preoccupation with death because we are
afraid to lose the known, the things that we have gathered. We
are afraid to lose a wife or husband, a child or a friend; we
are afraid to lose what we have learnt, accumulated. If we could
carry over all the things that we have gathered - our friends
our possessions, our virtues, our character - then we would not
be afraid of death, would we? That is why we invent theories
about death and the hereafter. But the fact is that death is an
ending, and most of us are unwilling to face this fact. We don't
want to leave the known; so it is our clinging to the known that
creates fear in us, not the unknown. The unknown cannot be
perceived by the known. But the mind, being made up of the
known, says, "I am going to end", and therefore it is
frightened.
Now, if you can live from moment to moment and not be concerned
about the future, if you can live without the thought of
tomorrow - which does not mean the superficiality of merely
being occupied with today; if, being aware of the whole process
of the known, you can, relinquish the known, let it go
completely, then you will find that an astonishing thing takes
place. Try it for a day - put aside everything you know, forget
it, and just see what happens. Don't carry over your worries
from day to day, from hour to hour, from moment to moment; let
them all go, and you will see that out of this freedom there
comes an extraordinary life that includes both living and dying.
Death is only the ending of something, and in that very ending
there is a renewing.
Questioner: It is said that in each one of us truth is permanent
and timeless, but, since our life is transitory, how can there
be truth in us?
Krishnamurti: You see, we have made of truth something
permanent. And is truth permanent? If it is, then it is within
the field of time. To say that something is permanent implies
that it is continuous; and what is continuous is not truth. That
is the beauty of truth: it must be discovered from moment to
moment, not remembered. A remembered truth is a dead thing.
Truth must be discovered from moment to moment because it is
living, it is never the same; and yet each time you discover it,
it is the same.
What is important is not to make a theory of truth, not to say
that truth is permanent in us and all the rest of it - that is
an invention of the old who are frightened both of death and of
life. These marvellous theories - that truth is permanent, that
you need not be afraid because you are an immortal soul, and so
on - have been invented by frightened people whose minds are
decaying and whose philosophies have no validity. The fact is
that truth is life, and life has no permanency. Life has to be
discovered from moment to moment, from day to day; it has to be
discovered, it cannot be taken for granted. If you take it for
granted that you know life, you are not living. Three meals a
day, clothing, shelter, sex, your job, your amusement and your
thinking process - that dull, repetitive process is not life.
Life is something to be discovered; and you cannot discover it
if you have not lost, if you have not put aside the things that
you have found. Do experiment with what I am saying. Put aside
your philosophies, your religions, your customs, your racial
taboos and all the rest of it, for they are not life. If you are
caught in those things you will never discover life; and the
function of education, surely, is to help you to discover life
all the time.
A man who says he knows is already dead. But the man who thinks,
"I don't know", who is discovering, finding out, who is not
seeking an end, not thinking in terms of arriving or becoming -
such a man is living, and that living is truth.
Questioner: Can I get an idea of perfection?
Krishnamurti: Probably you can. By speculating, inventing,
projecting, by saying, "This is ugly and that is perfect", you
will have an idea of perfection. But your idea of perfection,
like your belief in God, has no meaning. Perfection is something
that is lived in an unpremeditated moment, and that moment has
no continuity; therefore perfection cannot be thought out, nor
can a way be found to make it permanent. Only the mind that is
very quiet, that is not premeditating, inventing, projecting,
can know a moment of perfection, a moment that is complete.
Questioner: Why do we want to take revenge by hurting another
who has hurt us?
Krishnamurti: It is the instinctive, survival response, is it
not? Whereas, the intelligent mind, the mind that is awake, that
has thought about it very deeply, feels no desire to strike back
- not because it is trying to be virtuous or to cultivate
forgiveness, but because it perceives that to strike back is
silly, it has no meaning at all. But you see, that requires
meditation.
Questioner: I have fun in teasing others, but I myself get angry
when teased.
Krishnamurti: I am afraid it is the same with older people. Most
of us like to exploit others, but we don't like it when we in
our turn are exploited. Wanting to hurt or to annoy others is a
most thoughtless state, is it not? It arises from a life of
self-centredness. Neither you nor the other fellow likes being
teased, so why don't you both stop teasing? That means being
thoughtful.
Questioner: What is the work of man?
Krishnamurti: What do you think it is? Is it to study, pass
examinations, get a job and do it for the rest of your life? Is
it to go to the temple, join groups, launch various reforms? Is
it man's work to kill animals for his own food? Is it man's work
to build a bridge for the train to cross, to dig wells in a dry
land, to find oil, to climb mountains, to conquer the earth and
the air, to write poems, to paint, to love, to hate? Is all this
the work of man? Building civilizations that come toppling down
in a few centuries, bringing about wars, creating God in one's
own image, killing people in the name of religion or the State,
talking of peace and brotherhood while usurping power and being
ruthless to others - this is what man is doing all around you,
is it not? And is this the true work of man?
You can see that all this work leads to destruction and misery,
to chaos and despair. Great luxuries exist side by side with
extreme poverty; disease and starvation, with refrigerators and
jet planes. All this is the work of man; and when you see it
don't you ask yourself, "Is that all? Is there not something
else which is the true work of man?" If we can find out what is
the true work of man, then jet planes, washing machines,
bridges, hostels will all have an entirely different meaning;
but without finding out what is the true work of man merely to
indulge in reforms, in reshaping what man has already done, will
lead nowhere.
So, what is the true work of man? Surely, the true work of man
is to discover truth, God; it is to love and not to be caught in
his own self-enclosing activities. In the very discovery of what
is true there is love, and that love in man's relationship with
man will create a different civilization, a new world.
Questioner: Why do we worship God?
Krishnamurti: I am afraid we don't worship God. Don't laugh. You
see, we don't love God; if we did love God, there would not be
this thing we call worship. We worship God because we are
frightened of him; there is fear in our hearts, not love. The
temple, the puja, the sacred thread - these things are not of
God, they are the creations of man's vanity and fear. It is only
the unhappy, the frightened who worship God. Those who have
wealth, position and authority are not happy people. An
ambitious man is a most unhappy human being. Happiness comes
only when you are free of all that - and then you do not worship
God. It is the miserable, the tortured, those who are in despair
that crawl to a temple; but if they put aside this so-called
worship and understand their misery, then they will be happy men
and women, for they will discover what truth is, what God is.
Chapter 18
HAVE YOU EVER paid any attention to the ringing of the temple
bells? Now, what do you listen to? To the notes, or to the
silence between the notes? If there were no silence, would there
be notes? And if you listened to the silence, would not the
notes be more penetrating, of a different quality? But you see,
we rarely pay real attention to anything; and I think it is
important to find out what it means to pay attention. When your
teacher is explaining a problem in mathematics, or when you are
reading history, or when a friend is talking, telling you a
story, or when you are near the river and hear the lapping of
the water on the bank, you generally pay very little attention;
and if we could find out what it means to pay attention, perhaps
learning would then have quite a different significance and
become much easier.
When your teacher tells you to pay attention in class, what does
he mean? He means that you must not look out of the window, that
you must withdraw your attention from everything else and
concentrate wholly on what you are supposed to be studying. Or,
when you are absorbed in a novel, your whole mind is so
concentrated on it that for the moment you have lost interest in
everything else. That is another form of attention. So, in the
ordinary sense, paying attention is a narrowing-down process, is
it not?
Now, I think there is a different kind of attention altogether.
The attention which is generally advocated, practised or
indulged in is a narrowing-down of the mind to a point, which is
a process of exclusion. When you make an effort to pay
attention, you are really resisting something - the desire to
look out of the window, to see who is coming in, and so on. Part
of your energy has already gone in resistance. You build a wall
around your mind to make it concentrate completely on a
particular thing, and you call this the disciplining of the mind
to pay attention. You try to exclude from the mind every thought
but the one on which you want it to be wholly concentrated. That
is what most people mean by paying attention. But I think there
is a different kind of attention, a state of mind which is not
exclusive, which does not shut out anything; and because there
is no resistance, the mind is capable of much greater attention.
But attention without resistance does not mean the attention of
absorption.
The kind of attention which I would like to discuss is entirely
different from what we usually mean by attention, and it has
immense possibilities because it is not exclusive. When you
concentrate on a subject, on a talk, on a conversation,
consciously or unconsciously you build a wall of resistance
against the intrusion of other thoughts, and so your mind is not
wholly there; it is only partially there, however much attention
you pay, because part of your mind is resisting any intrusion,
any deviation or distraction.
Let us begin the other way round. Do you know what distraction
is? You want to pay attention to what you are reading, but your
mind is distracted by some noise outside and you look out of the
window. When you want to concentrate on something and your mind
wanders off, the wandering off is called distraction, then part
of your mind resists the so-called distraction, and there is a
waste of energy in that resistance. Whereas, if you are aware of
every movement of the mind from moment to moment, then there is
no such thing as distraction at any time and the energy of the
mind is not wasted in resisting something. So it is important to
find out what attention really is.
If you listen both to the sound of the bell and to the silence
between its strokes, the whole of that listening is attention.
Similarly, when someone is speaking, attention is the giving of
your mind not only to the words but also to the silence between
the words. If you experiment with this you will find that your
mind can pay complete attention without distraction and without
resistance. When you discipline your mind by saying, "I must not
look out of the window, I must not watch the people coming in, I
must pay attention even though I want to do something else", it
creates a division which is very destructive because it
dissipates the energy of the mind. But if you listen
comprehensively so that there is no division and therefore no
form of resistance then you will find that the mind can pay
complete attention to anything without effort. Do you see it? Am
I making myself clear?
Surely, to discipline the mind to pay attention is to bring
about its deterioration - which does not mean that the mind must
restlessly wander all over the place like a monkey. But, apart
from the attention of absorption, these two states are all we
know. Either we try to discipline the mind so tightly that it
cannot deviate, or we just let it wander from one thing to
another. Now, what I am describing is not a compromise between
the two; on the contrary, it has nothing to do with either. It
is an entirely different approach; it is to be totally aware so
that your mind is all the time attentive without being caught in
the process of exclusion.
Try what I am saying, and you will see how quickly your mind can
learn. You can hear a song or a sound and let the mind be so
completely full of it that there is not the effort of learning.
After all, if you know how to listen to what your teacher is
telling you about some historical fact, if you can listen
without any resistance because your mind has space and silence
and is therefore not distracted, you will be aware not only of
the historical fact but also of the prejudice with which he may
be translating it, and of your own inward response.
I will tell you something. You know what space is. There is
space in this room. The distance between here and your hostel,
between the bridge and your home, between this bank of the river
and the other - all that is space. Now, is there also space in
your mind? Or is it so crowded that there is no space in it at
all? If your mind has space, then in that space there is silence
- and from that silence everything else comes, for then you can
listen, you can pay attention without resistance. That is why it
is very important to have space in the mind. If the mind is not
overcrowded, not ceaselessly occupied, then it can listen to
that dog barking, to the sound of a train crossing the distant
bridge, and also be fully aware of what is being said by a
person talking here. Then the mind is a living thing, it is not
dead.
Questioner: Yesterday after the meeting we saw you watching two
peasant children, typically poor, playing by the roadside. We
would like to know what sentiments arose in your mind while you
were looking at them.
Krishnamurti: Yesterday afternoon several of the students met me
on the road, and soon after I left them I saw the gardener's two
children playing. The questioner wants to know what feelings I
had while I was watching those two children.
Now, what feelings do you have when you observe poor children?
That is more important to find out than what I may have felt. Or
are you always so busy going to your hostel or to your class
that you never observe them at all?
Now, when you observe those poor women carrying a heavy load to
the market, or watch the peasant children playing in the mud
with very little else to play with, who will not have the
education that you are getting, who have no proper home, no
cleanliness, insufficient clothing, inadequate food - when you
observe all that, what is your reaction? It is very important to
find out for yourself what your reaction is. I will tell you
what mine was.
Those children have no proper place to sleep; the father and the
mother are occupied all day long, with never a holiday; the
children never know what it is to be loved, to be cared for; the
parents never sit down with them and tell them stories about the
beauty of the earth and the heavens. And what kind of society is
it that has produced these circumstances - where there are
immensely rich people who have everything on earth they want,
and at the same time there are boys and girls who have nothing?
What kind of society is it, and how has it come into being? You
may revolutionize, break the pattern of this society, but in the
very breaking of it a new one is born which is again the same
thing in another form - the commissars with their special houses
in the country, the privileges, the uniforms, and so on down the
line. This has happened after every revolution, the French, the
Russian and the Chinese. And is it possible to create a society
in which all this corruption and misery does not exist? It can
be created only when you and I as individuals break away from
the collective, when we are free of ambition and know what it
means to love. That was my whole reaction, in a flash.
But did you listen to what I said?
Questioner: How can the mind listen to several things at the
same time?
Krishnamurti: That is not what I was talking about. There are
people who can concentrate on many things at the same time -
which is merely a matter of training the mind. I am not talking
about that at all. I am talking about a mind that has no
resistance, that can listen because it has the space, the
silence from which all thought can spring.
Questioner: Why do we like to be lazy?
Krishnamurti: What is wrong with laziness? What is wrong with
just sitting still and listening to a distant sound come nearer
and nearer? Or lying in bed of a morning and watching the birds
in a nearby tree, or a single leaf dancing in the breeze when
all the other leaves are very still? What is wrong with that? We
condemn laziness because we think it is wrong to be lazy; so let
us find out what we mean by laziness. If you are feeling well
and yet stay in bed after a certain hour, some people may call
you lazy. If you don't want to play or study because you lack
energy, or for other health reasons, that again may be called
laziness by somebody. But what really is laziness?
When the mind is unaware of its reactions, of its own subtle
movements, such a mind is lazy, ignorant. If you can't pass
examinations, if you haven't read many books and have very
little information, that is not ignorance. Real ignorance is
having no knowledge of yourself, no perception of how your mind
works, of what your motives, your responses are. Similarly,
there is laziness when the mind is asleep. And most people's
minds are asleep. They are drugged by knowledge, by the
Scriptures, by what Shankara or somebody else has said. They
follow a philosophy, practise a discipline, so their minds -
which should be rich, full, overflowing like the river - are
made narrow, dull, weary. Such a mind is lazy. And a mind that
is ambitious, that pursues a result, is not active in the true
sense of the word; though it may be superficially active,
pushing, working all day to get what it wants, underneath it is
heavy with despair, with frustration.
So one must be very watchful to find out if one is really lazy.
Don't just accept it if people tell you that you are lazy. Find
out for yourself what laziness is. The man who merely accepts,
rejects or imitates, the man who, being afraid, digs a little
rut for himself - such a man is lazy and therefore his mind
deteriorates, goes to pieces. But a man who is watchful is not
lazy, even though he may often sit very quietly and observe the
trees, the birds, the people, the stars and the silent river.
Questioner: You say that we should revolt against society, and
at the same time you say that we should not have ambition. Is
not the desire to improve society an ambition?
Krishnamurti: I have very carefully explained what I mean by
revolt, but I shall use two different words to make it much
clearer. To revolt within society in order to make it a little
better, to bring about certain reforms, is like the revolt of
prisoners to improve their life within the prison walls; and
such revolt is no revolt at all, it is just mutiny. Do you see
the difference? Revolt within society is like the mutiny of
prisoners who want better food, better treatment within the
prison; but revolt born of understanding is an individual
breaking away from society, and that is creative revolution.
Now, if you as an individual break away from society, is that
action motivated by ambition? If it is, then you have not broken
away at all, you are still within the prison, because the very
basis of society is ambition, acquisitiveness, greed. But if you
understand all that and bring about a revolution in your own
heart and mind, then you are no longer ambitious, you are no
longer motivated by envy, greed, acquisitiveness, and therefore
you will be entirely outside of a society which is based on
those things. Then you are a creative individual and in your
action there will be the seed of a different culture.
So there is a vast difference between the action of creative
revolution, and the action of revolt or mutiny within society.
As long as you are concerned with mere reform, with decorating
the bars and walls of the prison, you are not creative.
Reformation always needs further reform, it only brings more
misery, more destruction. Whereas, the mind that understands
this whole structure of acquisitiveness, of greed, of ambition
and breaks away from it - such a mind is in constant revolution.
It is an expansive, a creative mind; therefore, like a stone
thrown into a pool of still water, its action produces waves,
and those waves will form a different civilization altogether.
Questioner: Why do I hate myself when I don't study?
Krishnamurti: Listen to the question. Why do I hate myself when
I don't study as I am supposed to? Why do I hate myself when I
am not nice, as I should be? In other words, why don't I live up
to my ideals?
Now, would it not be much simpler not to have ideals at all? If
you had no ideals, would you then have any reason to hate
yourself? So why do you say, "I must be kind, I must be
generous, I must pay attention, I must study"? If you can find
out why, and be free of ideals, then perhaps you will act quite
differently - which I shall presently go into.
So, why do you have ideals? First of all, because people have
always told you that if you don't have ideals you are a
worthless boy. Society, whether it is according to the communist
pattern or the capitalist pattern, says, "This is the ideal",
and you accept it, you try to live up to it, do you not? Now,
before you try to live up to any ideal, should you not find out
whether it is necessary to have ideals at all? Surely, that
would make far more sense. You have the ideal of Rama and Sita,
and so many other ideals which society has given you or which
you have invented for yourself. Do you know why you have them?
Because you are afraid to be what you are. Let us keep it
simple, don't let us complicate it. You are afraid to be what
you are - which means that you have no confidence in yourself.
That is why you try to be what society, what your parents and
your religion tell you that you should be.
Now, why are you afraid to be what you are? Why don't you start
with what you are and not with what you should be? Without
understanding what you are, merely to try to change it into what
you think you should be has no meaning. Therefore scrap all
ideals. I know the older people won't like this, but it doesn't
matter. Scrap all ideals, drown them in the river, throw them
into the wastepaper basket, and start with what you are - which
is what?
You are lazy, you don't want to study, you want to play games,
you want to have a good time, like all young people. Start with,
that. Use your mind to examine what you mean when you talk about
having a good time - find out what is actually involved in it,
don't go by what your parents or your ideals say. Use your mind
to discover why you don't want to study. Use your mind to find
out what you want to do in life - what you want to do, not what
society or some ideal tells you to do. If you give your whole
being to this inquiry, then you are a revolutionary; then you
have the confidence to create, to be what you are, and in that
there is an ever renewing vitality. But the other way you are
dissipating your energy in trying to be like somebody else.
Don't you see, it is really an extraordinary thing that you are
so afraid to be what you are; because beauty lies in being what
you are. If you see that you are lazy, that you are stupid, and
if you understand laziness and come face to face with stupidity
without trying to change it into something else, then in that
state you will find there is an enormous release, there is great
beauty, great intelligence.
Questioner: Even if we do create a new society by revolting
against the present one, isn't this creation of a new society
still another form of ambition.
Krishnamurti: I am afraid you did not listen to what I said.
When the mind revolts within the pattern of society, such a
revolt is like a mutiny in a prison, and it is merely another
form of ambition. But when the mind understands this whole
destructive process of the present society and steps out of it,
then its action is not ambitious. Such action may create a new
culture, a better social order, a different world, but the mind
is not concerned with that creation. Its only concern is to
discover what is true; and it is the movement of truth that
creates a new world, not the mind which is in revolt against
society.
Chapter 19
I WONDER HOW MANY of you noticed the rainbow last evening? It
was just over the water, and one came upon it suddenly. It was a
beautiful thing to behold, and it gave one a great sense of joy,
an awareness of the vastness and beauty of the earth. To
communicate such joy one must have a knowledge of words, the
rhythm and beauty of right language, mustn't one? But what is
far more important is the feeling itself, the ecstasy that comes
with the deep appreciation of something lovely; and this feeling
cannot be awakened through the mere cultivation of knowledge or
memory.
You see, we must have knowledge to communicate, to tell each
other about something; and to cultivate knowledge there must be
memory. Without knowledge you cannot fly an airplane, you cannot
build a bridge or a lovely house, you cannot construct great
roads, look after trees, care for animals and do the many other
things that a civilized man must do. To generate electricity, to
work in the various sciences, to help man through medicine, and
so on - for all this you must have knowledge, information,
memory, and in these matters it is necessary to receive the best
possible instruction. That is why it is very important that you
should have technically first-class teachers to give you right
information and help you to cultivate a thorough knowledge of
various subjects.
But, you see, while knowledge is necessary at one level, at
another level it becomes a hindrance. There is a great deal of
knowledge available about physical existence, and it is being
added to, all the time. It is essential to have such knowledge
and to utilize it for the benefit of man. But is there not
another kind of knowledge which, at the psychological level
becomes a hindrance to the discovery of what is true? After all,
knowledge is a form of tradition, is it not? And tradition is
the cultivation of memory. Tradition in mechanical affairs is
essential, but when tradition is used as a means of guiding man
inwardly, it becomes a hindrance to the discovery of greater
things.
We rely on knowledge, on memory in mechanical things and in our
everyday living. Without knowledge we would not be able drive a
car, we would be incapable of doing many things. But knowledge
is a hindrance when it becomes a tradition, a belief which
guides the mind, the psyche, the inward being; and it also
divides people. Have you noticed how people all over the world
are divided into groups, calling themselves Hindus, Moslems,
Buddhists, Christians, and so on? What divides them? Not the
investigations of science, not the knowledge of agriculture, of
how to build bridges or fly jet planes. What divides people is
tradition, beliefs which condition the mind in a certain way.
So knowledge is a hindrance when it has become a tradition which
shapes or conditions the mind to a particular pattern, because
then it not only divides people and creates enmity between them,
but it also prevents the deep discovery of what is truth, what
is life, what is God. To discover what is God, the mind must be
free of all tradition, of all accumulation, of all knowledge
which it uses as a psychological safeguard.
The function of education is to give the student abundant
knowledge in the various fields of human endeavour and at the
same time to free his mind from all tradition so that he is able
to investigate, to find out, to discover. Otherwise the mind
becomes mechanical, burdened with the machinery of knowledge.
Unless it is constantly freeing itself from the accumulations of
tradition, the mind is incapable of discovering the Supreme,
that which is eternal; but it must obviously acquire expanding
knowledge and information so that it is capable of dealing with
the things that man needs and must produce.
So knowledge, which is the cultivation of memory, is useful and
necessary at a certain level, but at another level it becomes a
detriment. To recognize the distinction - to see where knowledge
is destructive and has to be put aside, and where it is
essential and to be allowed to function with as much amplitude
as possible - is the beginning of intelligence.
Now, what is happening in education at the present time? You are
being given various kinds of knowledge, are you not? When you go
to college you may become an engineer, a doctor, or a lawyer,
you may take a Ph.D. in mathematics or in some other branch of
knowledge, you may study domestic science and learn how to keep
house, how to cook, and so on; but nobody helps you to be free
of all traditions so that from the very beginning your mind is
fresh, eager and therefore capable of discovering something
totally new all the time. The philosophies, theories and beliefs
which you acquire from books, and which become your tradition,
are really a hindrance to the mind, because the mind uses these
things as a means of its own psychological security and is
therefore conditioned by them. So it is necessary both to free
the mind from all tradition, and at the same time to cultivate
knowledge, technique; and this is the function of education.
The difficulty is to free the mind from the known so that it can
discover what is new all the time. A great mathematician once
told of how he had been working on a problem for a number of
days and could not find the solution. One morning, as he was
taking a walk as usual, he suddenly saw the answer. What had
happened? His mind, being quiet, was free to look at the
problem, and the problem itself revealed the answer. One must
have information about a problem, but the mind must be free of
that information to find the answer.
Most of us learn facts, gather information or knowledge, but the
mind never learns how to be quiet, how to be free from all the
turmoils of life, from the soil in which problems take root. We
join societies, adhere to some philosophy, give ourselves over
to a belief, but all this is utterly useless because it does not
solve our human problems. On the contrary, it brings greater
misery, greater sorrow. What is needed is not philosophy or
belief, but for the mind to be free to investigate, to discover
and to be creative. You cram up to pass examinations, you gather
a lot of information and write it all out to get a degree,
hoping to find a job and get married; and is that all? You have
acquired knowledge, technique, but your mind is not free, so you
become a slave to the existing system - which really means that
you are not a creative human being. You may have children, you
may paint a few pictures or write an occasional poem, but surely
that is not creativeness. There must first be freedom of the
mind for creativeness to take place, and then technique can be
used to express that creativeness. But to have the technique is
meaningless without a creative mind, without the extraordinary
creativeness which comes with the discovery of what is true.
Unfortunately most of us do not know this creativeness because
we have burdened our minds with knowledge, tradition, memory,
with what Shankara, Buddha, Mao or some other person has said.
Whereas, if your mind is free to discover what is true, then you
will find that there comes an abundant and incorruptible
richness in which there is great joy. Then all one's
relationships - with people, with ideas and with things - have
quite a different meaning.
Questioner: Will the naughty boy change through punishment or
through love?
Krishnamurti: What do you think? Listen very carefully to the
question; think it out, feel it out. Will a naughty boy change
through punishment or through love? If he changes through
punishment, which is a form of compulsion, is that change? You
are a bigger person, you have authority as the teacher or the
parent, and if you threaten him, frighten him, the poor chap may
do as you say; but is that change? Is there change through any
form of compulsion? Can there ever be change through
legislation, through any form of fear?
And, when you ask if love will bring about a change in the
naughty boy, what do you mean by that word `love'? If to love is
to understand the boy - not to change him, but to understand the
causes that are producing naughtiness - then that very
understanding will bring about in him the cessation of
naughtiness.
If I want to change the boy so that he will stop being naughty,
my very desire to change him is a form of compulsion, is it not?
But if I begin to understand why he is naughty, if I can
discover and eradicate the causes that are producing naughtiness
in him - it may be wrong food, a lack of sleep, want of
affection, the fact that he is being teased by another boy and
so on - then the boy will not be naughty. But if my desire is
merely to change the boy, which is wanting him to fit into a
particular pattern, then I cannot understand him.
You see, this brings up the problem of what we mean by change.
Even if the boy ceases to be naughty because of your love for
him, which is a kind of influence, is that a real change It may
be love, but it is still a form of pressure on him to do or be
something. And when you say a boy must change, what do you mean
by that? Change from what to what? From what he is to what he
should be? If he changes to what he should be, has he not merely
modified what he was, and therefore it is no change at all?
To put it differently, if I am greedy and I become non-greedy
because you and society and the sacred books all tell me that I
must do so, have I changed, or am I merely calling greed by a
different name? Whereas, if I am capable of investigating and
understanding the whole problem of my greed, then I shall be
free of it - which is entirely different from becoming greedy.
Questioner: How is one to become intelligent?
Krishnamurti: The moment you try to become intelligent, you
cease to be intelligent. This is really important, so give your
mind to it a little bit. If I am stupid and everybody tells me
that I must become intelligent, what generally happens? I
struggle to become intelligent, I study more, I try to get
better marks. Then people say, "He is working harder," and pat
me on the back; but I continue to be stupid because I have only
acquired the trimmings of intelligence. So the problem is not
how to become intelligent, but how to be free of stupidity. If,
being stupid, I try to become intelligent, I am still
functioning stupidly.
You see, the basic problem is that of change. When you ask,
"What is intelligence and how is one to become intelligent?" it
implies a concept of what intelligence is, and then you try to
become like that concept. Now, to have a formula, a theory or
concept of what intelligence is, and to try to mould yourself
according to that pattern, is foolish, is it not? Whereas, if
one is dull and begins to find out what dullness is without any
desire to change it into something else, without saying, "I am
dull, stupid, how terrible!", then one will find that in
unravelling the problem there comes an intelligence freed of
stupidity, and without effort.
Questioner: I am a Moslem. If I don't follow daily the
traditions of my religion, my parents threaten to turn me out of
the house. What should I do?
Krishnamurti: You who are not Moslems will probably advise the
questioner to leave home, will you not? But regardless of the
label you wear - Hindu, Parsi, communist Christian, or what you
will - the same thing applies to you, so don't feel superior and
ride the high horse. If you tell your parents that their
traditions are really old superstitions, they also may turn you
out of the house.
Now, if you were raised in a particular religion and your father
says that you must leave home unless you observe certain
practices which you now see to be old superstitions, what are
you going to do? It depends on how vitally you don't want to
follow the old superstitions, does it not? Will you say, "I have
thought about the matter a great deal, and I think that to call
oneself a Moslem, a Hindu, a Buddhist, a Christian, or any of
these things, is nonsense. If for this reason I must leave home,
I will. I am ready to face whatever life brings, even misery and
death, because this is what I feel to be right and I am going to
stand by it" - will you say that? If you don't, you will just be
swallowed by tradition, by the collective. So, what are you
going to do? If education does not give you that kind of
confidence, then what is the purpose of education. Is it merely
to prepare you to get a job and fit into a society which is
obviously destructive? Don't say, "Only a few can break away,
and I am not strong enough". Anyone can break away who puts his
mind to it. To understand and withstand the pressure of
tradition you must have, not strength, but confidence - the
tremendous confidence which comes when you know how to think
things out for yourself. But you see, your education does not
teach you how to think; it tells you what to think. You are told
that you are a Moslem, a Hindu, a Christian, this or that. But
it is the function of right education to help you to think for
yourself, so that out of your own thinking you feel immense
confidence. Then you are a creative human being and not a
slavish machine.
Questioner: You tell us that there should be no resistance in
paying attention. How can this be?
Krishnamurti: I have said that any form of resistance is
inattention, distraction. Don't accept it, think it over. Don't
accept anything, it does not matter who says it, but investigate
the matter for yourself. If you merely accept, you become
mechanical dull, you are already dead; but if you investigate,
if you think things out for yourself, then you are alive, vital,
a creative human being.
Now, can you pay attention to what is being said and at the same
time be aware that somebody is coming in, without turning your
head to see who it is and without any resistance against turning
your head? If you resist turning your head to look, your
attention has already gone and you are wasting your mental
energy in that resistance. So, can there be a state of total
attention in which there is no distraction and therefore no
resistance? That is, can you pay attention to something with
your whole being and yet keep the outside of your consciousness
sensitive to all that is happening about you and within
yourself? You see, the mind is an extraordinary instrument, it
is constantly absorbing - seeing various forms and colours,
receiving innumerable impressions, catching the meaning of
words, the significance of a glance, and so on; and our problem
is to pay attention to something while at the same time keeping
the mind really sensitive to everything that is going on,
including all the unconscious impressions and responses.
What I am saying really involves the whole problem of
meditation. We cannot enter into that now; but if one doesn't
know how to meditate, one is not a mature human being.
Meditation is one of the most important things in life - far
more important than passing examinations to get a degree. To
understand what is right meditation is not to practise
meditation. The `practice' of anything in spiritual matters is
deadly. To understand what is right meditation there must be an
awareness of the operations of one's own consciousness, and then
there is complete attention. But complete attention is not
possible when there is any form of resistance. You see, most of
us are educated to pay attention through resistance, and so our
attention is always partial, never complete - and that is why
learning becomes tedious, boring, a fearful thing. Therefore it
is very important to pay attention in the deep sense of the
word, which is to be aware of the workings of one's own mind.
Without self-knowledge you cannot pay complete attention. That
is why, in a real school, the student must not only be taught
various subjects but also helped to be aware of the process of
his own thinking. In understanding himself he will know what it
is to pay attention without resistance, for the understanding of
oneself is the way of meditation.
Questioner: Why are we interested in asking questions?
Krishnamurti: Very simple: because one is curious. Don't you
want to know how to play cricket or football, or how to fly a
kite? The moment you stop asking questions you are already dead
- which is generally what has happened to older people. They
have ceased to inquire because their minds are burdened with
information, with what others have said; they have accepted and
are fixed in tradition. As long as you ask questions you are
breaking through, but the moment you begin to accept, you are
psychologically dead. So right through life don't accept a
thing, but inquire, investigate. Then you will find that your
mind is something really extraordinary, it has no end, and to
such a mind there is no death.
Chapter 20
THAT GREEN FIELD with mustard-yellow flowers and a stream
running through it is a lovely thing to look upon, is it not?
Yesterday evening I was watching it, and in seeing the
extraordinary beauty and quietness of the countryside one
invariably asks oneself what is beauty. There is an immediate
response to that which is lovely and also to that which is ugly,
the response of pleasure or of pain, and we put that feeling
into words saying, "This is beautiful" or "This is ugly". But
what matters is not the pleasure or the pain; rather, it is to
be in communion with everything, to be sensitive both to the
ugly and the beautiful.
Now, what is beauty? This is one of the most fundamental
questions, it is not superficial, so don't brush it aside. To
understand what beauty is, to have that sense of goodness which
comes when the mind and heart are in communion with something
lovely without any hindrance so that one feels completely at
ease - surely, this has great significance in life; and until we
know this response to beauty our lives will be very shallow. One
may be surrounded by great beauty, by mountains and fields and
rivers, but unless one is alive to it all one might just as well
be dead.
You girls and boys and older people just put to yourselves this
question: what is beauty? Cleanliness, tidiness of dress, a
smile, a graceful gesture, the rhythm of walking, a flower in
your hair, good manners, clarity of speech, thoughtfulness,
being considerate of others, which includes punctuality - all
this is part of beauty; but it is only on the surface, is it
not? And is that all there is to beauty, or is there something
much deeper?
There is beauty of form, beauty of design, beauty of life. Have
you observed the lovely shape of a tree when it is in full
foliage, or the extraordinary delicacy of a tree naked against
the sky? Such things are beautiful to behold, but they are all
the superficial expressions of something much deeper. So what is
it that we call beauty?
You may have a beautiful face, clean-cut features, you may dress
with good taste and have polished manners, you may paint well or
write about the beauty of the landscape, but without this inward
sense of goodness all the external appurtenances lead to a very
superficial, sophisticated life, life without much significance.
So we must find out what beauty really is, must we not? Mind
you, I am not saying that we should avoid the outward
expressions of beauty. We must all have good manners, we must be
physically clean and dress tastefully, without ostentation, we
must be punctual, clear in our speech, and all the rest of it.
These things are necessary and they create a pleasant
atmosphere; but by themselves they have not much significance.
It is inward beauty that gives grace, an exquisite gentleness to
outward form and movement. And what is this inward beauty
without which one's life is very shallow? Have you ever thought
about it? Probably not. You are too busy, your minds are too
occupied with study, with play, with talking, laughing and
teasing each other. But to help you to discover what is inward
beauty, without which outward form and movement have very little
meaning, is one of the functions of right education; and the
deep appreciation of beauty is an essential part of your own
life.
Can a shallow mind appreciate beauty? It may talk about beauty;
but can it experience this welling up of immense joy upon
looking at something that is really lovely? When the mind is
merely concerned with itself and its own activities, it is not
beautiful; whatever it does, it remains ugly, limited, therefore
it is incapable of knowing what beauty is. Whereas, a mind that
is not concerned with itself, that is free of ambition, a mind
that not caught up in its own desires or driven by its own
pursuit of success - such a mind is not shallow, and it flowers
in goodness. Do you understand? It is this inward goodness that
gives beauty even to a so-called ugly face. When there is inward
goodness the ugly face is transformed, for inward goodness is
really a deeply religious feeling. Do you know what it is to be
religious? It has nothing to do with temple bells, though they
sound nice in the distance, nor with pujas, nor with the
ceremonies of the priests and all the rest of the ritualistic
nonsense. To be religious is to be sensitive to reality. Your
total being - body, mind and heart - is sensitive to beauty and
to ugliness, to the donkey tied to a post, to the poverty and
filth in this town, to laughter and tears, to everything about
you. From this sensitivity for the whole of existence springs
goodness, love; and without this sensitivity there is no beauty,
though you may have talent, be very well dressed, ride in an
expensive car and be scrupulously clean.
Love is something extraordinary, is it not? You cannot love if
you are thinking about yourself - which does not mean that you
must think about somebody else. Love is, it has no object. The
mind that loves is really a religious mind because it is in the
movement of reality, of truth, of God, and it is only such a
mind that can know what beauty is. The mind that is not caught
in any philosophy, that is not enclosed in any system or belief,
that is not driven by its own ambition and is therefore
sensitive, alert, watchful - such a mind has beauty.
It is very important while you are young to learn to be tidy and
clean, to sit well without restless movement, to have good table
manners and to be considerate, punctual; but all these things,
however necessary, are superficial, and if you merely cultivate
the superficial without understanding the deeper thing, you will
never know the real significance of beauty. A mind that does not
belong to any nation, group or society, that has no authority,
that is not motivated by ambition or held by fear - such a mind
is always flowering in love and goodness. Because it is in the
movement of reality, it knows what beauty is; being sensitive to
both the ugly and the beautiful, it is a creative mind, it has
limitless understanding.
Questioner: If I have an ambition in childhood, will I be able
to fulfil it as I grow up?
Krishnamurti: A childhood ambition is generally not very
enduring, is it? A little boy wants to be an engine driver; or
he sees a jet plane go flashing across the sky and he wants to
be a pilot; or he hears some political orator and wants to be
like him, or sees a sannyasi and decides to become one too. A
girl may want to have many children, or be the wife of a rich
man and live in a big house, or she may aspire to paint or to
write poems.
Now, will childhood dreams be fulfilled? And are dreams worth
fulfilling? To seek the fulfilment of any desire, no matter what
it is, always brings sorrow. Perhaps you have not yet noticed
this, but you will as you grow up. Sorrow is the shadow of
desire. If I want to be rich or famous, I struggle to reach my
goal, pushing others aside and creating enmity; and, even though
I may get what I want, sooner or later something invariably
happens. I fall ill, or in the very fulfilling of my desire I
long for something more; and there is always death lurking
around the corner. Ambition, desire and fulfilment lead
inevitably to frustration, sorrow. You can watch this process
for yourself. Study the older people around you, the men who are
famous, who are great in the land, those who have made names for
themselves and have power. Look at their faces; see how sad, or
how fat and pompous they are. Their faces have ugly lines. They
don't flower in goodness because in their hearts there is
sorrow.
Is it not possible to live in this world without ambition just
being what you are? If you begin to understand what you are
without trying to change it, then what you are undergoes a
transformation. I think one can live in this world anonymously,
completely unknown, without being famous, ambitious, cruel. One
can live very happily when no importance is given to the self;
and this also is part of right education.
The whole world is worshipping success. You hear stories of how
the poor boy studied at night and eventually became a judge, or
how he began by selling newspapers and ended up a
multimillionaire. You are fed on the glorification of success.
With the achievement of great success there is also great
sorrow; but most of us are caught up in the desire to achieve,
and success is much more important to us than the understanding
and dissolution of sorrow.
Questioner: In the present social system is it not very
difficult to put into action what you are talking about?
Krishnamurti: When you feel very strongly about something, do
you consider it difficult to put it into action? When you are
keen to play cricket, you play it with your whole being, don't
you? And do you call it difficult? It is only when you don't
totally feel the truth of something that you say it is difficult
to put it into action. You don't love it. That which you love
you do with ardour, there is joy in it, and then what society or
what your parents may say does not matter. But if you are not
deeply convinced, if you do not feel free and happy in doing
what you think is right, surely your interest in it is false,
unreal; therefore it becomes mountainous and you say it is
difficult to put it into action.
In doing what you love to do there will of course be
difficulties, but that won't matter to you, it is part of life.
You see, we have made a philosophy of difficulty, we consider it
a virtue to make effort, to struggle, to oppose.
I am not talking of proficiency through effort and struggle, but
of the love of doing something. But don't battle against
society, don't tackle dead tradition, unless you have this love
in you, for your struggle will be meaningless, and you will
merely create more mischief. Whereas, if you deeply feel what is
right and can therefore stand alone, then your action born of
love will have extraordinary significance, it will have
vitality, beauty.
You know, it is only in a very quiet mind that great things are
born; and a quiet mind does not come about through effort,
through control, through discipline.
Questioner: What do you mean by a total change, and how can it
be realized in one's own being?
Krishnamurti: Do you think there can be a total change if you
try to bring it about? Do you know what change is? Suppose you
are ambitious and you have begun to see all that is involved in
ambition: hope, satisfaction, frustration, cruelty, sorrow,
inconsideration, greed, envy, an utter lack of love. Seeing all
this, what are you to do? To make an effort to change or
transform ambition is another form of ambition, is it not? It
implies a desire to be something else. You may reject one
desire, but in that very process you cultivate another desire
which also brings sorrow.
Now, if you see that ambition brings sorrow, and that the desire
to put an end to ambition also brings sorrow, if you see the
truth of this very clearly for yourself and do not act, but
allow the truth to act, then that truth brings about a
fundamental change in the mind, a total revolution. But this
requires a great deal of attention, penetration, insight.
When you are told, as you all are, that you should be good, that
you should love, what generally happens? You say, "I must
practise being good, I must show love to my parents, to the
servant, to the donkey, to everything". That means you are
making an effort to show love - and then `love' becomes very
shoddy, very petty, as it does with those nationalistic people
who are everlastingly practising brotherhood, which is silly,
stupid. It is greed that causes these practices. But if you see
the truth of nationalism, of greed, and let that truth work upon
you, let that truth act, then you will be brotherly without
making any effort. A mind that practises love cannot love. But
if you love and do not interfere with it, then love will
operate.
Questioner: Sir, what is self-expansion?
Krishnamurti: If you want to become the governor or a famous
professor, if you imitate some big man or hero, if you try to
follow your guru or a saint, then that process of becoming,
imitating, following is a form of self-expansion, is it not? An
ambitious man, a man who wants to be great, who wants to fulfil
himself may say, "I am doing this in the name of peace and for
the sake of my country; but his action is still the expansion of
himself.
Questioner: Why is the rich man proud?
Krishnamurti: A little boy asks why the rich man is proud. Have
you really noticed that the rich man is proud? And do not the
poor also have pride? We all have our own peculiar arrogance
which we show in different ways. The rich man, the poor man the
learned man, the man of capacity, the saint, the leader - each
in his own way has the feeling that he has arrived, that he is a
success, that he is somebody or can do something. But the man
who is nobody, who does not want to be a somebody, who is just
himself and understands himself - such a man is free of
arrogance, of pride.
Questioner: Why are we always caught in the `me' and the 'mine',
and why do we keep bringing up in our meetings with you the
problems which this state of mind produces?
Krishnamurti: Do you really want to know, or has somebody
prompted you to ask this question? The problem of the `me' and
the `mine' is one in which we are all involved. It is really the
only problem we have, and we are everlastingly talking about it
in different ways, sometimes in terms of fulfilment and
sometimes in terms of frustration, sorrow. The desire to have
lasting happiness, the fear of dying or of losing property, the
pleasure of being flattered, the resentment of being insulted,
the quarrelling over your god and my god, your way and my way -
the mind is ceaselessly occupied with all this and nothing else.
It may pretend to seek peace, to feel brotherly, to be good, to
love, but behind this screen of words it continues to be caught
up in the conflict of the `me' and the `mine', and that is why
it creates the problems which you bring up every morning in
different words.
Questioner: Why do women dress themselves up?
Krishnamurti: Have you not asked them? And have you never
watched the birds? Often it is the male bird that has more
colour, more sprightliness. To be physically attractive is part
of the sexual relationship to produce young. That is life. And
the boys also do it. As they grow up they like to comb their
hair in a particular way, wear a nice cap, put on attractive
clothes - which is the same thing. We all want to show off. The
rich man in his expensive car, the girl who makes herself more
beautiful, the boy who tries to be very smart - they all want to
show that they have something. It is a strange world, is it not?
You see, a lily or a rose never pretends, and its beauty is that
it is what it is.
Chapter 21
ARE YOU INTERESTED in trying to find out what is learning? You
go to school to learn, don't you? And what is learning? Have you
ever thought about it? How do you learn, why do you learn, and
what is it that you are learning? What is the meaning, the
deeper significance of learning? You have to learn to read and
write, to study various subjects, and also to acquire a
technique, to prepare yourself for a profession by which to earn
a livelihood. We mean all of that when we talk about learning -
and then most of us stop there. As soon as we pass certain
examinations and have a job, a profession, we seem to forget all
about learning.
But is there an end to learning? We say that learning from books
and learning from experience are two different things; and are
they? From books we learn what other people have written about
sciences, for example. Then we make our own experiments and
continue to learn through those experiments. And we also learn
through experience - at least that is what we say. But after all
to fathom the extraordinary depths of life, to find out what God
or truth is, there must be freedom; and, through experience, is
there freedom to find out,to learn?
Have you thought about what experience is? It is the feeling in
response to a challenge, is it not? To respond to a challenge is
experience. And do you learn through experience? When you
respond to a challenge, to a stimulus, your response is based on
your conditioning, on the education you have received, on your
cultural, religious, social and economic background. You respond
to a challenge conditioned by your background as a Hindu, a
Christian, a communist, or whatever you are. If you do not break
away from your background, your response to any challenge only
strengthens or modifies that background. Hence you are really
never free to explore, to discover, to understand what is truth,
what is God,
So, experience does not free the mind, and learning through
experience is only a process of forming new patterns based on
one's old conditioning. I think it is very important to
understand this, because as we grow older we get more and more
entrenched in our experience, hoping thereby to learn; but what
we learn is dictated by the background, which means that through
the experience by which we learn there is never freedom but only
the modification of conditioning.
Now, what is learning? You begin by learning how to read and
write, how to sit quietly, how to obey or not to obey; you learn
the history of this or that country, you learn languages which
are necessary for communication; you learn how to earn a
livelihood, how to enrich the fields, and so on. But is there a
state of learning in which the mind is free of the background, a
state in which there is no search? Do you understand the
question?
What we call learning is a continuous process of adjusting,
resisting, subjugating; we learn either to avoid or to gain
something. Now, is there a state in which the mind is not the
instrument of learning but of being? Do you see the difference?
As long as we are acquiring, getting, avoiding, the mind must
learn, and in such learning there is always a great deal of
tension, resistance. To learn you must concentrate, must you
not? And what is concentration?
Have you ever noticed what happens when you concentrate on
something? When you are required to study a book which you don`t
want to study, or even if you do want to study, you have to
resist and put aside other things. You resist the inclination to
look out of the window, or to talk to somebody, in order to
concentrate. So in concentration there is always effort, is
there not? In concentration there is a motive, an incentive, an
effort to learn in order to acquire something; and our life is a
series of such efforts, a state of tension in which we are
trying to learn. But if there is no tension at all, no
acquiring, no laying up of knowledge, is not the mind then
capable of learning much more deeply and swiftly? Then it
becomes an instrument of inquiry to find out what is truth, what
is beauty, what is God - which means, really, that it does not
submit to any authority, whether it be the authority of
knowledge or society, of religion, culture or conditioning.
You see, it is only when the mind is free from the burden of
knowledge that it can find out what is true; and in the process
of finding out, there is no accumulation, is there? The moment
you begin to accumulate what you have experienced or learnt, it
becomes an anchorage which holds your mind and prevents it from
going further. In the process of inquiry the mind sheds from day
to day what it has learnt so that it is always fresh,
uncontaminated by yesterday's experience. Truth is living, it is
not static, and the mind that would discover truth must also be
living, not burdened with knowledge or experience. Then only is
there that state in which truth can come into being.
All this may be difficult in the verbal sense, but the meaning
is not difficult if you apply your mind to it. To inquire into
the deeper things of life, the mind must be free; but the moment
you learn and make that learning the basis of further inquiry,
your mind is not free and you are no longer inquiring.
Questioner: Why do we so easily forget what we find difficult to
learn?
Krishnamurti: Are you learning merely because circumstances
force you to learn? After all, if you are studying physics and
mathematics but you really want to become a lawyer, you soon
forget the physics and mathematics. Do you really learn if you
have an incentive to learn? If you want to pass certain
examinations merely in order to find a job and get married, you
may make an effort to concentrate, to learn; but once you pass
the examinations you soon forget what you have learned, do you
not? When learning is only a means to get somewhere, the moment
you have got where you want to go, you forget the means - and
surely that is not learning at all. So there may be the state of
learning only when there is no motive no incentive when you do
the thing for the love of itself.
Questioner: What is the significance of the word `progress`?
Krishnamurti: Like most people, you have ideals, have you not?
And the ideal is not real, not factual; it is what should be, it
is something in the future. Now, what I say is this; forget the
ideal, and be aware of what you are. Do not pursue what should
be, but understand what is. The understanding of what you
actually are is far more important than the pursuit of what you
should be. Why? Because in understanding what you are there
begins a spontaneous process of transformation, whereas in
becoming what you think you should be there is no change at all,
but only a continuation of the same old thing in a different
form. If the mind, seeing that it is stupid, tries to change its
stupidity into intelligence, which is what should be, that is
silly, it has no meaning, no reality; it is only the pursuit of
a self-projection, a postponement of the understanding of what
is. As long as the mind tries to change its stupidity into
something else, it remains stupid. But if the mind says, "I
realize that I am stupid and I want to understand what stupidity
is, therefore I shall go into it, I shall observe how it comes
into being", then that very process of inquiry brings about a
fundamental transformation.
"What is the significance of the word `progress'?" Is there such
a thing as progress? You see the bullock cart moving at two
miles an hour, and that extraordinary thing called the jet plane
travelling at 6oo or more miles per hour. That is progress, is
it not? There is technological progress: better means of
communication, better health and so on. But is there any other
form of progress? Is there psychological progress in the sense
of spiritual advancement through time? Is the idea of progress
in spirituality really spiritual, or merely an invention of the
mind?
You know, it is very important to ask fundamental questions; but
unfortunately we find very easy answers to fundamental
questions. We think the easy answer is a solution, but it is
not. We must ask a fundamental question and let that question
operate, let it work in us to find out what is the truth of it.
Progress implies time, does it not? After all, it has taken us
centuries to come from the bullock cart to the jet plane. Now,
we think that we can find reality or God in the same way,
through time. We are here, and we think of God as being over
there, or somewhere far away, and to cover that distance, that
intervening space, we say we need time. But God or reality is
not fixed, and neither are we fixed; there is no fixed point
from which to start and no fixed point towards which to move.
For reasons of psychological security we cling to the idea that
there is a fixed point in each of us, and that reality is also
fixed; but this is an illusion, it is not true. The moment we
want time in which to evolve or progress inwardly, spiritually,
what we are doing is no longer spiritual, because truth is not
of time. A mind which is caught up in time demands time to find
reality. But reality is beyond time, it has no fixed point. The
mind must be free of all its accumulations, conscious as well as
unconscious, and only then is it capable of finding out what is
truth, what is God.
Questioner: Why do birds fly away when I come near?
Krishnamurti: How nice it would be if the birds did not fly away
when you came near! If you could touch them, be friendly with
them, how lovely it would be! But you see, we human beings are
cruel people. We kill the birds, torture them, we catch them in
nets and put them in cages. Think of a lovely parrot in a cage!
Every evening it calls to its mate and sees the other birds
flying across the open sky. When we do all these things to the
birds, do you think they will not be frightened when we come
near them? But if you sit quietly in an isolated spot and are
very still, really gentle, you will soon find that the birds
come to you; they hover quite close and you can observe their
alert movements, their delicate claws, the extraordinary
strength and beauty of their feathers. But to do that you must
have immense patience, which means you must have a great deal of
love, and also there must be no fear. Animals seem to sense fear
in us, and they in turn get frightened and run away. That is why
it is very important to understand oneself.
You try sitting very still under a tree, but not just for two or
three minutes, because the birds won't get used to you in so
short a time. Go and sit quietly under the same tree every day,
and you will soon begin to be aware that everything around you
is living. You will see the blades of grass sparkling in the
sunshine, the ceaseless activity of the little birds, the
extraordinary sheen of a snake, or a kite flying high in the
skies enjoying the breeze without a movement of its wings. But
to see all this and to feel the joy of it you must have real
quietness inside you.
Questioner: What is the difference between you and me?
Krishnamurti: Is there any fundamental difference between us?
You may have a fair skin and I may be quite dark; you may be
very clever and know a lot more than I; or I may live in a
village while you travel all over the world, and so on.
Obviously there are differences in form, in speech, in
knowledge, in manners in tradition and culture; but whether we
are Brahmins or non-Brahmins, whether we are Americans,
Russians, Japanese, Chinese, or what you will, is there not a
great similarity between us all? We are all afraid, we all want
security, we all want to be loved, we all want to eat and to be
happy. But you see, the superficial differences destroy our
awareness of the fundamental similarity between us as human
beings. To understand and to be free of that similarity brings
about great love, great thoughtfulness. Unfortunately, most of
us are caught up in, and therefore divided by, the superficial
differences of race, of culture, of belief. Beliefs are a curse,
they divide people and create antagonism. It is only by going
beyond all beliefs, beyond all differences and similarities,
that the mind can be free to find out what is true.
Questioner: Why does the teacher get cross with me when I smoke?
Krishnamurti: Probably he has told you many times not to smoke
because it is not very good for little boys; but you keep on
smoking because you like the taste, so he gets cross with you.
Now, what do you think? Do you think one should get used to
smoking, or acquire any other habit, while one is so very young?
If at your age your body gets accustomed to smoking, it means
you are already a slave to something; and is that not a terrible
thing? Smoking may be all right for older people, but even that
is extremely doubtful. Unfortunately, they have their excuses
for being slaves to various habits. But you who are very young,
immature, adolescent, you who are still growing - why should you
get used to anything, or fall into any habit, which only makes
you insensitive? The moment the mind gets used to something it
begins to function in the groove of habit, therefore it becomes
dull, it is no longer vulnerable; it loses that sensibility
which is necessary to find out what is God, what is beauty, what
is love.
Questioner: Why do men hunt tigers?
Krishnamurti: Because they want to kill for the excitement of
killing. We all do lots of thoughtless things - like tearing the
wings from a fly to see what will happen. We gossip and say
harsh things about others; we kill to eat; we kill for so-called
peace; we kill for our country or for our ideas. So there is a
great streak of cruelty in us, is there not? But if one can
understand and put that aside, then it is great fun just to
watch the tiger go by - as several of us did one evening near
Bombay. A friend took us into the forest in his car to look for
a tiger which somebody had seen nearby. We were returning and
had just rounded a curve, when suddenly there was the tiger in
the middle of the road. Yellow and black, sleek and lean, with a
long tail, he was a lovely thing to watch, full of grace and
power. We switched off the headlights and he came growling
towards us, passing so close that he almost touched the car. It
was a marvellous sight. If one can watch a thing like that
without a gun it is much more fun, and there is great beauty in
it.
Questioner: Why are we burdened with sorrow?
Krishnamurti: We accept sorrow as an inevitable part of life and
we build philosophies around it; we justify sorrow, and we say
that sorrow is necessary in order to find God. I say, on the
contrary, there is sorrow because man is cruel to man. Also we
don't understand a great many things in life which therefore
bring sorrow - things like death, like not having a job, like
seeing the poor in their misery. We don't understand all this,
so we are tortured; and the more sensitive one is, the more one
suffers. Instead of understanding these things, we justify
sorrow; instead of revolting against this whole rotten system
and breaking through it, we merely adjust ourselves to it. To be
free of sorrow one must be free of the desire to do harm - and
also of the desire to do `good', the so-called good that is
equally the result of our conditioning.